S.F.A.W I hope...

last.. miss.. love.. memories.. life database(huh?)... the joy...

p/s: the promise of "S.F.A.W"

Hungry little love

why? why me? why not some other guys?
why? why should you up for it? why?
why me? *sigh* hell why?

A chat with depression

Look here.
Do you know who the hell I am?
I am no friend and am no lamb.
I am here to destroy you.
I am no friend.
I am the enemy.
Im the devil in disguise.

Im The devil in the darkness.
Im the warrior that destroys.

I am depression.
You will never be free.
I will be with you for ever.

So now do you know who I am?
I am deppression
Worse than the devil
I am the devil in disguise
So now be wise

p/s: i'm talking with it! and i'm seriously shocked now!

Alone in my own world

I sit here alone,
in this dark place.
My mind has gone crazy,
my heart's in a race.
I sit here alone,
with my thoughts gone mad.
I feel I'm insane,
my life's turned bad.
I sit here alone,
as people pass by.
I scream to be heard,
but can't and cry.
I sit here alone,
I'm all messed up.
I have no control,
It's time to give up.
I sit here alone,
I can't hold on.
I'm losing my grasp,
My sanity's gone.
I sit here alone,
My freedom is here,
The struggle is over,
I won't shed a tear.
I sit here alone,
I shall never see light.
I have only darkness,
In my own world tonight.

The life cycle of my emotions

Love leads to pain
Pain leads to hatred
Hatred leads to sorrow
Sorrow leads to despair
Despair leads to pleasure
Pleasure leads to happiness
Happiness leads to love
Love leads to pain

p/s: that is all about it, to feel what it shouldnt be feel.. is it okay? i hope so...

Plenty of anger

There is plenty of anger inside of me
It has to stop
Why is there so much anger inside of me?
My anger is part of my frustration
I have to control it now
My anger causes me plenty of trouble
There is plenty of anger inside of me
And what is anger do I know?
Anger is a strong feeling of displasure
It is a grief that I have inside of me
How can I control it?
What triggers my anger?
Can I recognize it?

Finished and Something to do

at last i finished my presentation today.. it was great to feel that im free now, just for now okayy! gotta practice my guitar cause today i got jamm session haih release all the pain and the suffering that i been through!

p/s: heart broken is just a simple kinda of pain that i always been through! knowing someone that i suppose to make me crazy and down all day long! so got to do sumthing better now... cheers guys :D

All sucked-up

empty already my ideas to write down the situation analysis + executive summary = web based! Gotta continue it tonite, or else im dead! wahh! i hope guys also do what you suppose to do erk! gotta motivated myself to finish up this task before thursday... please god give me some strength to face all that happen to me lately...