I am a dreamer about you, I am a dreamer about myself, Although it is a nightmare for me to dream about you and myself

Monday, May 21, 2007

Anugerah Terindah Yang Pernah Kumiliki

aku baru jer abes tgk muvie freedom writers, kinda cool true story and aku sker giler ngan character yang Hillary Swank bawak iaitu Erin Gruwell.. respect gler kat dier yg mane tlah brani tuk mengajar stoden die yg agak gler prangai memasing, racial prejudice, mentality and psychology abuse, dimana stoden2 Erin ni lalui dan byk lagi aspek yg cube si Erin di bwat tuk prubahan stoden die dari negative to positive laahh... yang aku sker part die suh stoden die tulis dlm journal ape yg derang rase, from past till present anything yg derang rase nak tulis, so dengan itu stoden die dpt mengisahkan perjlnan hidup dan setiap kejadian baik atau buruk yg berlaku atas diri mereke sendiri. actually writing ni best, actually die dpt meluahkan isihati kite yg mana kalau kite nk ckp tu, mmg xterdaya kecuali dengan setiap abjad yg terjadinya perkataan, jika disimpan kat dlm tuh bahaye gak, coz it will make us more and more hurting the feeling inside pastu jadilah bende2 yg xsepatutnyer jadik.. ermm!

so, im take my time here to write what i wanna write about myself, my environment, my ups and downs and all the factors that impact myself to be like this... dalam sume post yg pernah aku post kan kat sini sumenyer datang dari lubuk hati aku sendiri, dari aku belajar menulis dlm diary hingga lah aku post kat dlm blog nih, it just a simple words but sometimes it really impact myself untill now... kire kebykan post kat dlm blog ni pon adalah hasil 3 tahun aku kat MMU. ape yang aku rasai dan ape yang aku lalui sume tuh adalah wasiat dan tinggalan tuk org2 yg bace blog aku nih.. kebykan nyer sume adalah berdasarkan emosi. haih skang da nak abes da kat MMU aku rindu kat sume bende2 yg aku lalui biler aku bace balik post2 aku yang lepas2 terase cam xnak berpisah pada saat tu, tp kite xberkuase nak bwat bende diluar jangkaan manusia, kite just keep on living and trying da best until we lost our breath... FYP pon settle already, BHM pon same gak lega rase nyer... Alhamdulillah!

teringat aku kat seseorg time2 gini, aiseh jiwangs la plak ahaks... ;)) aku nyalakan rokok sambil menulis ape yg aku nk cakap, saat2 biler aku bersame die aku rase best sangat, xder org lain best selain aku... bler aku kuar ngan die aku rase die adalah seseorg special tuk aku and aku la bodyguard die yang paling best and i will protect her no matter what, bler kuar aku mkn ngan die, aku slalu perhatikan mata dan mulut die aku tahu yang die ade something nk cakap, kadang2 bler aku pandang die sampei aku pon da terbang kemane2 tah le aku terbang ke Paris kots hahaaha... tp sebenarnya aku xtau camner nak ckp dan camner nk buat.. :| im just a total loser! tu yg slalu aku cakapkan kat diriku... oh man! i wish that she was mine, but somehow aku rase cam aku cuber tuk jauhkan diriku kat die sbab aku tau aku xbleh lakukan, why! why! hish! da pukul 6.10am aku still dok merapu menghaban kat dlm blog nih.. god! i wish that she know what is deep inside my heart rite now.. ishh sudah la tuh aku tetaplah aku begini, kamu tetaplah kamu begitu!

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Farewell

I wish you farewell,
To new and better things,
No matter how hard it is,
Never give it up.
Reach for what you want,
And you'll soar into the sky.
So long, I bid you a farewell,
No matter how hard it may be to let you go.
I'll see you again,
whether you come to visit or it's in my memories.
Never forget those who love you,
for they are always there for you.
I'm here for you.
I wish you a farewell,
To a new and more exciting adventure.
Although there will be hard times,
Forget them and remember the good ones
You had here with your family and friends.
I'll love you always.
Farewell.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

War vs. Normal

We get up in the morning to enjoy a lovely breakfast
We get up in the morning to escape the gunfire

We go and play
We go and hide

We run and play games with our friends
We run and hide, in a shelter with our friends

We have lunch with our families
We perform a cremation ritual to our families

We listen to the music on our MP3
We listen to the bloodshed outside our shelter

We have dinner in peace, and silence
We have dinner caution, and suspicion

We say goodnight, before going to sleep
We pray to god, for mercy, before going to sleep

Monday, May 14, 2007

Fantasi CINTA, dibumi realiti

Cinta itu banyak tafsirannya,
Cinta juga banyak konspirasi,
Dalam atau luar hati itu yang dikatakan cinta?
Cinta bagaikan jawapan yang mengejar soalan yang belum pasti dapat memintasnya,
Cinta adalah ilusi dalam keadaan realiti,
Namun kenapa harus kita menolak ia pergi?

Cinta datang dan cinta pergi,
Cinta adalah kamu bila dicintai,
Cinta adalah dia bila disanjungi,

Cinta itu kehidupan manusia yang waras,
Dengan cinta kita tidak akan terbabas,
Dari segala ranjau yang akan memusnahkan kita,
Iaitu benci...

p/s: tidak boleh melelapkan mata, walaupun pagi ini ada MUET... ARGGHHHH!!!

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Life is what life is

Through all the ups, all the downs,
Some will be there, some can't be found.
If they won't care as they should, so be it.
This is life in the way that I wish to see it.

You can give your all, or you can try not.
When they decide to leave, what have you got?
You build it up, then it breaks away.
This is life in the way I see it today.

Days come and go, true hearts stay close.
Without happiness, love is an imitation at most.
You haven't stayed close, it's hard to love you,
This is life in a way that is sadly true.

To leave behind such a feeble mind,
forget it and pursue someone real.
This is my goal, and in time...
This will be life and the way that I feel.