Mute 2nd week
2nd week of working
its boring
and it is a life of working actually
im gonna get use of it perhaps
hmmmpphhh (ala-ala 'Andy Lau' dlm 'Warlord')!!
Monday, December 17, 2007
You and the my old words
i like to see your eyes
it just so clear calm like a clear water on a blue beach
that makes me calm when im with you
i like to see your smile
the smile that keeps me smile all the day im with you
and the smile that always remind me to you
i like to see when you are walking
the grace of your step carefully i watch till im feel ok
you walk to the path with me together we are one
i like to understand deep in your heart
which i know you are such a kindness, loving, caring person
i wish i could spend my time inside your heart
i never felt like this before
i never come to this moment before
all i just saying is just keep repeating the same old words
that im really meant it!!
I love you always
I love you with all my heart
I LOVE YOU... :)
p/s: finally, for a long time da xsqueeze midori nye pipi akhirnyer seiji~kun dapat gak smlm 2 time ok! haha seiji~kun nyer kulit amfibia that why la peluh2 huhuhu..
i like to see your eyes
it just so clear calm like a clear water on a blue beach
that makes me calm when im with you
i like to see your smile
the smile that keeps me smile all the day im with you
and the smile that always remind me to you
i like to see when you are walking
the grace of your step carefully i watch till im feel ok
you walk to the path with me together we are one
i like to understand deep in your heart
which i know you are such a kindness, loving, caring person
i wish i could spend my time inside your heart
i never felt like this before
i never come to this moment before
all i just saying is just keep repeating the same old words
that im really meant it!!
I love you always
I love you with all my heart
I LOVE YOU... :)
p/s: finally, for a long time da xsqueeze midori nye pipi akhirnyer seiji~kun dapat gak smlm 2 time ok! haha seiji~kun nyer kulit amfibia that why la peluh2 huhuhu..
Nitrus - Kamu
Umpama bidadari
Yang turun dari kayangan
Indah nian tak berbandingan
Terasa bagai disentuh bayangan mu
Sesungguhnya kamu terang bagaikan cahaya
Yang menyinari hidupku dikala ku kelam.. kelam
Terciptalah aku tuk kali pertama
Dan akan ku buktikan kesungguhan dari hati ini
Hati ini…
Umpama bidadari
Kau selalu menyenangkan aku
Biar kadang ku terkeliru
Izinkan aku menyentuh bayanganmu
Terciptanya aku untuk kau
p/s: this song remind me about you! everytime i play it, it seems that you and me are listening and sing it together.. all that i want to say is, this song is "special" for me and you! NITRUS ROCK!!
Umpama bidadari
Yang turun dari kayangan
Indah nian tak berbandingan
Terasa bagai disentuh bayangan mu
Sesungguhnya kamu terang bagaikan cahaya
Yang menyinari hidupku dikala ku kelam.. kelam
Terciptalah aku tuk kali pertama
Dan akan ku buktikan kesungguhan dari hati ini
Hati ini…
Umpama bidadari
Kau selalu menyenangkan aku
Biar kadang ku terkeliru
Izinkan aku menyentuh bayanganmu
Terciptanya aku untuk kau
p/s: this song remind me about you! everytime i play it, it seems that you and me are listening and sing it together.. all that i want to say is, this song is "special" for me and you! NITRUS ROCK!!
The lonely ant life
today im just sitting in my office without any stuff to do, while listening to "lagu untukmu" by Meet Uncle Hussain" and viewing people down there, i think about myself and whats gonna happen to me next... is it good or is it bad? i just can think about it..but i cant change what it suppose to be happen.. it scared me, and sometimes i just don't want to think about it. its all about myself, my working life, my relationship life and so on. but mostly i just think about my carrier my job, huh... (at least i have a job and why should i complaining to myself?)hah, probably my life doesn't bond here and i need to be socialize but not like this...talking to myself everyday.. it can turn me to be an insane person laughing all alone, smoking all alone, and of course living here in the office all alone! i don't how much longer can i stand of this scenario.. i will wait and see how will it go, and i will follow the flow of my instinct to what should i do next...
looking at the small creature called ant walking solo without any of his tribe in front of my table makes me wonder how pity to be live alone and trying to survive a life without communicating to others. just you imagine, what should you do if you a lost and lonely ant without any socialize life. haha! for me im sure that i can live, but im dead from the inside and slowly it eats the outside part! so, scary woo! i know i should do something before it turns to be like...i don't know how to say! but im glad im still not alone 100% cause i got you.. you know YOU! i feel so alive when we communicate.. and im so thankful to you ARIGATOU! if not.. i die like ant up here huhu~ better i go for smoke for a while then i continue...
After smoking
hah! its surprising me already while i smoke in the toilet the i meet Mr. Halim and we were chat. he is kind of iraninan and an chief editor of "the criteria" newspaper that founded by SABA and all the financial matter covered by ABIM. but the thing is would you believe to make a newspaper that release once a month the workers that done it is only 3 person including Mr. Halim! OMG! who's going to be photographer? designer? journalist? and other post that need to be have, but the reality is this 3 hardworking people that doing their job well. he said to me, that actually SABA have a lack of weakness. OK! i been taken by Mr Halim to tour their office then i see, only 1 desktop that actually got to be for designing purpose and another one is laptop for correction of grammar mistake... i couldn't imagine how this guys do their job. Mr Halim said he tried already asked Puan Saba for increasing the number of computers and also the staffs but she haven't yet solve the problem. all that i know is, Puan Saba wants me to be up here to "guard" this office..but she actually should put me in publishing department because theres short of staff. what can i do! but Mr Halim want me to join the team, its kind a cool if i work there! haha what can i say, i just wait for the right moment to discuss this for! actually he kind of sad to look me staying alone in the other side of office.. nobody to talk, nobody to make a laugh and what so ever... then the final word from him is, try la talk to Puan Saba about you want to join this team, then i say, ok..i'll talk to her when the time has come!
after that, here i am again writing without any conclusion.. just write and write..
p/s: kamu! i forget la what is your blog address... nnt kamu kasi tau ya! hope you write when you have something to express... :-)
today im just sitting in my office without any stuff to do, while listening to "lagu untukmu" by Meet Uncle Hussain" and viewing people down there, i think about myself and whats gonna happen to me next... is it good or is it bad? i just can think about it..but i cant change what it suppose to be happen.. it scared me, and sometimes i just don't want to think about it. its all about myself, my working life, my relationship life and so on. but mostly i just think about my carrier my job, huh... (at least i have a job and why should i complaining to myself?)hah, probably my life doesn't bond here and i need to be socialize but not like this...talking to myself everyday.. it can turn me to be an insane person laughing all alone, smoking all alone, and of course living here in the office all alone! i don't how much longer can i stand of this scenario.. i will wait and see how will it go, and i will follow the flow of my instinct to what should i do next...
looking at the small creature called ant walking solo without any of his tribe in front of my table makes me wonder how pity to be live alone and trying to survive a life without communicating to others. just you imagine, what should you do if you a lost and lonely ant without any socialize life. haha! for me im sure that i can live, but im dead from the inside and slowly it eats the outside part! so, scary woo! i know i should do something before it turns to be like...i don't know how to say! but im glad im still not alone 100% cause i got you.. you know YOU! i feel so alive when we communicate.. and im so thankful to you ARIGATOU! if not.. i die like ant up here huhu~ better i go for smoke for a while then i continue...
After smoking
hah! its surprising me already while i smoke in the toilet the i meet Mr. Halim and we were chat. he is kind of iraninan and an chief editor of "the criteria" newspaper that founded by SABA and all the financial matter covered by ABIM. but the thing is would you believe to make a newspaper that release once a month the workers that done it is only 3 person including Mr. Halim! OMG! who's going to be photographer? designer? journalist? and other post that need to be have, but the reality is this 3 hardworking people that doing their job well. he said to me, that actually SABA have a lack of weakness. OK! i been taken by Mr Halim to tour their office then i see, only 1 desktop that actually got to be for designing purpose and another one is laptop for correction of grammar mistake... i couldn't imagine how this guys do their job. Mr Halim said he tried already asked Puan Saba for increasing the number of computers and also the staffs but she haven't yet solve the problem. all that i know is, Puan Saba wants me to be up here to "guard" this office..but she actually should put me in publishing department because theres short of staff. what can i do! but Mr Halim want me to join the team, its kind a cool if i work there! haha what can i say, i just wait for the right moment to discuss this for! actually he kind of sad to look me staying alone in the other side of office.. nobody to talk, nobody to make a laugh and what so ever... then the final word from him is, try la talk to Puan Saba about you want to join this team, then i say, ok..i'll talk to her when the time has come!
after that, here i am again writing without any conclusion.. just write and write..
p/s: kamu! i forget la what is your blog address... nnt kamu kasi tau ya! hope you write when you have something to express... :-)
Thursday, December 13, 2007
The cycle of emotion collide
just like im blind
my ears are deaf probably
my arms and legs could be paralyzed
try to make myself moving
but suddenly it just couldn't happen
but if it happen i might stumble onto the ground
the things that really function is
my heart and my brain
but i just couldn't live my life like this
well it seems like im eager to rebel with my own
my own of goodness and badness
im blurred right now
maybe time will solve it out
and i flow with the motion of solution
but i have my second heart to listen to
without it i probably lost everything
everything that i love
everything that i miss
yes, its myself again that reflect this situation
why should i rebel to myself?
it might be not a rebel, it this a part of my life
the way my emotion express maybe like this
going around and around through my head
and then it kept, deep inside
what..am i writing about this?
arghh! maybe today not my day
and i shall give it to other people
blurred, confused..with it
i should try first
and it just started
i hope it will be better
or else im a loser...
just like im blind
my ears are deaf probably
my arms and legs could be paralyzed
try to make myself moving
but suddenly it just couldn't happen
but if it happen i might stumble onto the ground
the things that really function is
my heart and my brain
but i just couldn't live my life like this
well it seems like im eager to rebel with my own
my own of goodness and badness
im blurred right now
maybe time will solve it out
and i flow with the motion of solution
but i have my second heart to listen to
without it i probably lost everything
everything that i love
everything that i miss
yes, its myself again that reflect this situation
why should i rebel to myself?
it might be not a rebel, it this a part of my life
the way my emotion express maybe like this
going around and around through my head
and then it kept, deep inside
what..am i writing about this?
arghh! maybe today not my day
and i shall give it to other people
blurred, confused..with it
i should try first
and it just started
i hope it will be better
or else im a loser...
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Colder than a giant ice cube
look through out my window,
i can see a car wash down there,
the worker busy washing, vacuuming, and polish the customer's car,
ermm what a day for me up here looking down there people doing something,
even though it just stop raining but people a coming there to wash a car,
ermm its kind of weird activity or shall i say a weird community here
likes to wash a car during rainy season,
it find for me if the rain a fully stop then the sun waving down u,
its fine..its fine..thats mean go wash your car,
but if the sun still sleeping with its smooth and soft black cloud,
it mean sun will sleep laaa.. and will not come out!
so what do they trying to do after 10 minute finished washing then suddenly
the rain comes heavily and makes me wonder about all the customer
that went to that car wash place...
weird but its true,
live and clear up here,
see the drama of silence people,
and move your brain to think about,
and the thing that u think will make it sense...
i walkout through my office
to sense some heat that sun left
and the weird thing is,
its kind of scary part i think,
i feel myself been followed,
maybe 'the thing' wanted to join me,
u know where..toilet of course..
i just let it be,
as long as it doesn't show off..
that is scary + weird,
maybe now 'the thing' are sit beside me,
i don't know...
but at least it give me a sweat laa..
because of kecuakkan yg telah terjadik..
look through out my window,
i can see a car wash down there,
the worker busy washing, vacuuming, and polish the customer's car,
ermm what a day for me up here looking down there people doing something,
even though it just stop raining but people a coming there to wash a car,
ermm its kind of weird activity or shall i say a weird community here
likes to wash a car during rainy season,
it find for me if the rain a fully stop then the sun waving down u,
its fine..its fine..thats mean go wash your car,
but if the sun still sleeping with its smooth and soft black cloud,
it mean sun will sleep laaa.. and will not come out!
so what do they trying to do after 10 minute finished washing then suddenly
the rain comes heavily and makes me wonder about all the customer
that went to that car wash place...
weird but its true,
live and clear up here,
see the drama of silence people,
and move your brain to think about,
and the thing that u think will make it sense...
i walkout through my office
to sense some heat that sun left
and the weird thing is,
its kind of scary part i think,
i feel myself been followed,
maybe 'the thing' wanted to join me,
u know where..toilet of course..
i just let it be,
as long as it doesn't show off..
that is scary + weird,
maybe now 'the thing' are sit beside me,
i don't know...
but at least it give me a sweat laa..
because of kecuakkan yg telah terjadik..
A road to MIRACLE explanation
its like when the trees need the sun to live
its like when u were chasing by a rottweiler of course u will run as fast as the flash
but somehow... if the trees doesn't need the sun and u don't run when rottweiler chase u
what will it be?
a logical thinking might thought about dead, yeah.. suppose to be dead or struggle to inhale the last breath of u..
but in other thought, the trees and the person could be alive and survive
ITS A MIRACLE...
all i want to express is, believe of what u believe and hope for the best to come
MIRACLE is a dream for all that like to be a dreamer
just like me...
bored in this office then the MIRACLE happen..
a work is been given (angkat barang ke store) wallawehh!! THANK GOD!
its like when the trees need the sun to live
its like when u were chasing by a rottweiler of course u will run as fast as the flash
but somehow... if the trees doesn't need the sun and u don't run when rottweiler chase u
what will it be?
a logical thinking might thought about dead, yeah.. suppose to be dead or struggle to inhale the last breath of u..
but in other thought, the trees and the person could be alive and survive
ITS A MIRACLE...
all i want to express is, believe of what u believe and hope for the best to come
MIRACLE is a dream for all that like to be a dreamer
just like me...
bored in this office then the MIRACLE happen..
a work is been given (angkat barang ke store) wallawehh!! THANK GOD!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
2nd Day of travel and 1st for us
its like when u travel to balik kampong in a long distance u can see sawah padi, pokok getah ker, rumput yang menhijau ker, ermm kalu xpon maybe a "JENK" of cows and a "JENK" of buffalo lepak2 together. but when it come to this situation, my travel to come and work here is really weird sket kot? i think? 1st u akan jmp bukit2 yang indah tersergam and also the hutan kelapa sawit yang might be relax a bit ur otak for a while...then...u will move on to the saket jiwa dan raga nyer driving a "JENK" of myvi and a "JENK" of savvy tgh dok dog fight on the the road ermm... then the feels of tension and mcm2 lagi arise with the jammed traffic with a stupid scenario, i mean ok laa.. Malaysia orgnya sgt prihatin wlaupon xciden kat sbelah jln..yang sbelah lagi asyik dok slow n usha2 smp kekdg tu xciden..dah dua lane pon xciden n sume nak tengok... mcm nak tengok semut n kerengga melintas jalan.. sgt prihatin rakyat malaysia CAYALAHH...I LUV MALAYSIA :D
then when it comes to knowing, both of us mcm da lame sgt terkenal mcm popular la plak ayat "terkenal" tuh.. but its true! mmg mcm lama n i dont feel like we just meet... but its just 1st for us but in other way its kind of da serasi n da sebati dgn masing2 mcm hahaha xtau nk ckp camner.. it just like im glad for us..KEEPON ROCKIN BABY!!
p/s: haa da start merapu ikan kerapu da..da dpt tulih mcm2 bende nk tulih hahaha Kamu! forget the "angkasawan' shoes ok? love that shoes...and finally we got what we want rite? ;D
its like when u travel to balik kampong in a long distance u can see sawah padi, pokok getah ker, rumput yang menhijau ker, ermm kalu xpon maybe a "JENK" of cows and a "JENK" of buffalo lepak2 together. but when it come to this situation, my travel to come and work here is really weird sket kot? i think? 1st u akan jmp bukit2 yang indah tersergam and also the hutan kelapa sawit yang might be relax a bit ur otak for a while...then...u will move on to the saket jiwa dan raga nyer driving a "JENK" of myvi and a "JENK" of savvy tgh dok dog fight on the the road ermm... then the feels of tension and mcm2 lagi arise with the jammed traffic with a stupid scenario, i mean ok laa.. Malaysia orgnya sgt prihatin wlaupon xciden kat sbelah jln..yang sbelah lagi asyik dok slow n usha2 smp kekdg tu xciden..dah dua lane pon xciden n sume nak tengok... mcm nak tengok semut n kerengga melintas jalan.. sgt prihatin rakyat malaysia CAYALAHH...I LUV MALAYSIA :D
then when it comes to knowing, both of us mcm da lame sgt terkenal mcm popular la plak ayat "terkenal" tuh.. but its true! mmg mcm lama n i dont feel like we just meet... but its just 1st for us but in other way its kind of da serasi n da sebati dgn masing2 mcm hahaha xtau nk ckp camner.. it just like im glad for us..KEEPON ROCKIN BABY!!
p/s: haa da start merapu ikan kerapu da..da dpt tulih mcm2 bende nk tulih hahaha Kamu! forget the "angkasawan' shoes ok? love that shoes...and finally we got what we want rite? ;D
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Again Left Leg
one leg stand
one leg walking
one leg balance it
one leg kicking the mattress
one leg is so helpful in this situation
one leg is for gas
one leg is for brake and clutch
its kinda horrific moment
one more leg sitting back
one more leg just ignore other leg
one more leg is swell like a big hot ballon
one more leg is been punished by me using "minyak panas hijau"
so hot and can merembeskan all the angin inside there
now its kinda ok and the swell kinda turn to normal size back
now i can drive back but a bit pain la ;)
thats why i can write today hahaha!!
p/s: arigatou for massage my leg yaa! you can be 'mak urut' tuh but cuak gak nak urut ngan you.. till now... this is public announcement: dont play futsal dgn sgt bersungguh2 kalu tak seliuh lagi teruk if retak or patah or lagi horror tercabut!! wuuu!! i da cuak da...
one leg stand
one leg walking
one leg balance it
one leg kicking the mattress
one leg is so helpful in this situation
one leg is for gas
one leg is for brake and clutch
its kinda horrific moment
one more leg sitting back
one more leg just ignore other leg
one more leg is swell like a big hot ballon
one more leg is been punished by me using "minyak panas hijau"
so hot and can merembeskan all the angin inside there
now its kinda ok and the swell kinda turn to normal size back
now i can drive back but a bit pain la ;)
thats why i can write today hahaha!!
p/s: arigatou for massage my leg yaa! you can be 'mak urut' tuh but cuak gak nak urut ngan you.. till now... this is public announcement: dont play futsal dgn sgt bersungguh2 kalu tak seliuh lagi teruk if retak or patah or lagi horror tercabut!! wuuu!! i da cuak da...
Friday, November 30, 2007
So long! How short!
so long keyboard...
so long monitor...
so long mousy...
so long speaker...
how short the time we need each other...
how short the time we know each other...
so long phone...
so long toilet...
so long pantry...
so long emergency stairs...
how short the time we've been conflicted
how short the time we talk each other
so long to happy voice
so long to anger voice
so long to flirting voice
so long to sad voice
how short the time for me to understand it
how short the time for me to get use to it
so long! how short! its kind of emotional situation that i feel right now!
sorry to all and thank you for accepting me in this department
so long! how short! life is about sacrificing all the bad to good and the good to bad, thats all i know the life to survive to live here!!
so long! how short! ;-)
p/s: waiting for the 10th Dec 07 to rebuilding a new road and i hope it much better than a highway... and kamu! thanks for your support back those days ya! :-)
so long keyboard...
so long monitor...
so long mousy...
so long speaker...
how short the time we need each other...
how short the time we know each other...
so long phone...
so long toilet...
so long pantry...
so long emergency stairs...
how short the time we've been conflicted
how short the time we talk each other
so long to happy voice
so long to anger voice
so long to flirting voice
so long to sad voice
how short the time for me to understand it
how short the time for me to get use to it
so long! how short! its kind of emotional situation that i feel right now!
sorry to all and thank you for accepting me in this department
so long! how short! life is about sacrificing all the bad to good and the good to bad, thats all i know the life to survive to live here!!
so long! how short! ;-)
p/s: waiting for the 10th Dec 07 to rebuilding a new road and i hope it much better than a highway... and kamu! thanks for your support back those days ya! :-)
Thursday, November 29, 2007
AISHITERU!!!
I love the way you hold me
I love the way you care
I love the way you look at me
and how you're always there
I love the way you say 'i love you'
I love the way you smile
I love how you make me laugh
when we talk all night
I love the way you make me happy
I love the way we're true
I love the way you love me
but mostly that i love you.
I love the way you hold me
I love the way you care
I love the way you look at me
and how you're always there
I love the way you say 'i love you'
I love the way you smile
I love how you make me laugh
when we talk all night
I love the way you make me happy
I love the way we're true
I love the way you love me
but mostly that i love you.
The emotions & activities around me from 17th oct till now...
dizzy
disorinted
overdose
faint
chaotic
mess
fuss
begging
demanding
silence
loudness
talking
signing
stapling
print
stamping
rebel
sleepy
anger
jokes
daydream
head banging
love (you)
miss (you)
The important thing in me inside (office) here is WRITING the life WRITING the experience to be shared WRITING the truth WRITING to relief ~i am the writingwriter
dizzy
disorinted
overdose
faint
chaotic
mess
fuss
begging
demanding
silence
loudness
talking
signing
stapling
stamping
rebel
sleepy
anger
jokes
daydream
head banging
love (you)
miss (you)
The important thing in me inside (office) here is WRITING the life WRITING the experience to be shared WRITING the truth WRITING to relief ~i am the writingwriter
Friday, November 23, 2007
"Far Away"
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
p/s: like the lyric it so emotional (review back since the last post..biler pon da xingat da), the way he express it through the song is much much emotional + the arrangement of the song is awesome + moderate part is so nice when the melody is repeating through our head..enjoy it! from "Nickelback"
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
p/s: like the lyric it so emotional (review back since the last post..biler pon da xingat da), the way he express it through the song is much much emotional + the arrangement of the song is awesome + moderate part is so nice when the melody is repeating through our head..enjoy it! from "Nickelback"
Outrages sound and melody on their "vacation"
its like a melody
its like a sequence of tone
the tempo sometimes in normal beat 4 by 4 sometimes it goes like 3 by 4
the loud the sound the hate i am
the more the sound the crazy i feel
its like happy holiday everybody
its like you sitting on a bench at hawaii island then suddenly...tsunami come
its like cold turn to hot
its like a melody
its like a sequence of tone
what is it?
where is it everybody?
its like 20 become 5
the sound again EMERGE from the handle
its like a box
so many kind of color variation on it
sometimes with stickers on it
the sound again and again joining together to sing in their language
but i know their language
and i understand it, other people understand it
i hate and i feel crazy of it
please someone, somebody
PICK UP THE PHONE PLEASE!!
EVERYBODY GONE TO THEIR "VACATION"
AND HAPPY WITHOUT ANY SOUND BECAUSE THEY ARE DEAF.. huhu!!ITS A PHONE.. ITS A TELEPHONE..huhu...
its like a melody
its like a sequence of tone
the tempo sometimes in normal beat 4 by 4 sometimes it goes like 3 by 4
the loud the sound the hate i am
the more the sound the crazy i feel
its like happy holiday everybody
its like you sitting on a bench at hawaii island then suddenly...tsunami come
its like cold turn to hot
its like a melody
its like a sequence of tone
what is it?
where is it everybody?
its like 20 become 5
the sound again EMERGE from the handle
its like a box
so many kind of color variation on it
sometimes with stickers on it
the sound again and again joining together to sing in their language
but i know their language
and i understand it, other people understand it
i hate and i feel crazy of it
please someone, somebody
PICK UP THE PHONE PLEASE!!
EVERYBODY GONE TO THEIR "VACATION"
AND HAPPY WITHOUT ANY SOUND BECAUSE THEY ARE DEAF.. huhu!!ITS A PHONE.. ITS A TELEPHONE..huhu...
Thursday, November 22, 2007
How I wanna ask for help if myself dont know it...
i dont know how to start and to say..
but it seems to bother my mind..
i dont know what is it..
it feel like i got to do something that can relief it..
seriously what is it that im thinking? feeling?
it was like jumble up + mixed up with i dont know what thing,
but back in the past i always feel like this,
but now suddenly it come to ruin myself,
probably maybe the stress and the tension in the working place or
maybe to much thinking of a problems or maybe because..
ARGGHH i dont know what is it!!
GOD.. please calm me down, i dont mad or angry to people today,
but i just dont feel like me today!!let me know myself with
my heart my soul and my body... :(
p/s: dont worry dear! i'll remember your words..
i dont know how to start and to say..
but it seems to bother my mind..
i dont know what is it..
it feel like i got to do something that can relief it..
seriously what is it that im thinking? feeling?
it was like jumble up + mixed up with i dont know what thing,
but back in the past i always feel like this,
but now suddenly it come to ruin myself,
probably maybe the stress and the tension in the working place or
maybe to much thinking of a problems or maybe because..
ARGGHH i dont know what is it!!
GOD.. please calm me down, i dont mad or angry to people today,
but i just dont feel like me today!!let me know myself with
my heart my soul and my body... :(
p/s: dont worry dear! i'll remember your words..
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
A day with a crazy hour till 3
today people seems to be nice to me maybe because I think they miss the crop hair man that always busying himself with work... i feel so ok today because of the environment actually its quite freezing here (can mutate me into a snowman cause snow da nk turun kat my office MY GOD!) and the people quite nice to me ;)...
there's one part that i think funny and true kot haha!! there's 1 my office mate said to me "weh mane ko pi smlm hah? ko gi dating ek
ngan awek ko?! yela..smlm pon kl org xramai so senang la bergerak kan *sambel ghenyeh2*" then i was said back to him "mane ade beb,aku xsihat laa smlm, aku agak demam + seseme sket tu psl laa aku xmai!!" then i plus my word more more "ape brg dating time weekdays beb?! org dating time weekend laa start jumaat, sabtu, ahad baru laa betul *dengan gaya kompoiden nye ayat tuh kuaq*" then,ok
this part is to remember, come 1 akak rerupenyer tengah pasang telinga heard my conversation with my mate, she said "wahh!romantik ko firdaus ek? akak ingat ko nih
ganas + rock rerupenyer ko nih romantik",then she plus "ala akak tau, org cam ko nih
mmg camtuh luar lain dalam lain,hahaha baru akak tau rupe2nye ko ni jiwang karat mcm awie dlm cite kpg pisang!" then i laugh out loud! so easy they call me like that...ok! i take that as a joke,its fine for me...selagi ia tak menjatuhkn my dignity...i have pride and also a stance to be followed! haha very funny la my office mate today, they just like 1 year didnt see me in the office haih! terharu2...
then, i rush to my work, in about 25 mins.. then come 1 more akak talking to 1 more akak, "eh! ko xpesan ap2 ke kat cik anuar tuh? kan die outstation kat srawak.." so, my ears like parabola satelite that catch every sound n frequency beyond any other satelite can..hahaha apekah? then continue 1 of the akak "aku ingat nak pesan pasu bunga laaa yang...blablabla" haih akaks talk! you know..then another 1"aku ingat nak pesan GAMBIR SARAWAK laaa...baru laa best lama skit" then i was like WHAT THE tuttut this akak order from mr anuar there. oh man!! then i suddenly, laugh in cover mode...so she caught me then she said "haaa tgk tuh firdaus tuh tau tuh psl GAMBIR SARAWAK mesti pernah gune *dalam style2 gurau gedik2*" then i said "mane de akak oi!! penah dengaq je laaa kan kat mesjid india tu kan bersepahm org jual apsal nk bli kat sane haih!" then dengan pantas nyer kene counter "sane baru pure n ori!!" OH MY GOD! ade gak akak2 mcm ni kt cni talking this kind of thing...uihhhh mereman
bulu roma ku mcm terjmp hantu lompat2 hahaha.. so i leave them with their hot
chat.. but every time that akak pass my cubicle she said "hah firdaus2 xsangka akak
ko nih ek" then she spoil my hepi day a bit i said "akak jgn la dok ckp camni tooloongg laa ok!!*ngan gaye yang tegas*"haha then she a bit blush laa kot.. too proud wuth her story about GAMBIR SARAWAK kasi sumbat mulut baru tau...:))
that is the weird and crazy day after i've been working here since october the 17th... i gotta laugh with all my heart te kuarkuar lepas abes keje ni WAHAHAHAA!!
p/s:mcm best je kamu tmpt kamu ckp tu, xper kalu sedap kite have a try ok ;)hepi reading yaa!!
today people seems to be nice to me maybe because I think they miss the crop hair man that always busying himself with work... i feel so ok today because of the environment actually its quite freezing here (can mutate me into a snowman cause snow da nk turun kat my office MY GOD!) and the people quite nice to me ;)...
there's one part that i think funny and true kot haha!! there's 1 my office mate said to me "weh mane ko pi smlm hah? ko gi dating ek
ngan awek ko?! yela..smlm pon kl org xramai so senang la bergerak kan *sambel ghenyeh2*" then i was said back to him "mane ade beb,aku xsihat laa smlm, aku agak demam + seseme sket tu psl laa aku xmai!!" then i plus my word more more "ape brg dating time weekdays beb?! org dating time weekend laa start jumaat, sabtu, ahad baru laa betul *dengan gaya kompoiden nye ayat tuh kuaq*" then,ok
this part is to remember, come 1 akak rerupenyer tengah pasang telinga heard my conversation with my mate, she said "wahh!romantik ko firdaus ek? akak ingat ko nih
ganas + rock rerupenyer ko nih romantik",then she plus "ala akak tau, org cam ko nih
mmg camtuh luar lain dalam lain,hahaha baru akak tau rupe2nye ko ni jiwang karat mcm awie dlm cite kpg pisang!" then i laugh out loud! so easy they call me like that...ok! i take that as a joke,its fine for me...selagi ia tak menjatuhkn my dignity...i have pride and also a stance to be followed! haha very funny la my office mate today, they just like 1 year didnt see me in the office haih! terharu2...
then, i rush to my work, in about 25 mins.. then come 1 more akak talking to 1 more akak, "eh! ko xpesan ap2 ke kat cik anuar tuh? kan die outstation kat srawak.." so, my ears like parabola satelite that catch every sound n frequency beyond any other satelite can..hahaha apekah? then continue 1 of the akak "aku ingat nak pesan pasu bunga laaa yang...blablabla" haih akaks talk! you know..then another 1"aku ingat nak pesan GAMBIR SARAWAK laaa...baru laa best lama skit" then i was like WHAT THE tuttut this akak order from mr anuar there. oh man!! then i suddenly, laugh in cover mode...so she caught me then she said "haaa tgk tuh firdaus tuh tau tuh psl GAMBIR SARAWAK mesti pernah gune *dalam style2 gurau gedik2*" then i said "mane de akak oi!! penah dengaq je laaa kan kat mesjid india tu kan bersepahm org jual apsal nk bli kat sane haih!" then dengan pantas nyer kene counter "sane baru pure n ori!!" OH MY GOD! ade gak akak2 mcm ni kt cni talking this kind of thing...uihhhh mereman
bulu roma ku mcm terjmp hantu lompat2 hahaha.. so i leave them with their hot
chat.. but every time that akak pass my cubicle she said "hah firdaus2 xsangka akak
ko nih ek" then she spoil my hepi day a bit i said "akak jgn la dok ckp camni tooloongg laa ok!!*ngan gaye yang tegas*"haha then she a bit blush laa kot.. too proud wuth her story about GAMBIR SARAWAK kasi sumbat mulut baru tau...:))
that is the weird and crazy day after i've been working here since october the 17th... i gotta laugh with all my heart te kuarkuar lepas abes keje ni WAHAHAHAA!!
p/s:mcm best je kamu tmpt kamu ckp tu, xper kalu sedap kite have a try ok ;)hepi reading yaa!!
Morning in a new day after resting one day
ohiogozaimasu! for me to feel better
ohiogozaimasu! for you to feel better
ohiogozaimasu! happy days for me today
ohiogozaimasu! happy days for you today
ohiogozaimasu! for you to make feel like this
ohiogozaimasu! for us!
ohiogozaimasu! aishiteru for all of my heart!!
working day in the morning is such a refresh activity like jogging in town with stressful road full with cars and motorcycle!!
URESHII!!
ohiogozaimasu! for me to feel better
ohiogozaimasu! for you to feel better
ohiogozaimasu! happy days for me today
ohiogozaimasu! happy days for you today
ohiogozaimasu! for you to make feel like this
ohiogozaimasu! for us!
ohiogozaimasu! aishiteru for all of my heart!!
working day in the morning is such a refresh activity like jogging in town with stressful road full with cars and motorcycle!!
URESHII!!
Friday, November 16, 2007
Because of "M" doesnt want to stuck in our mouth...
so, we gone crazy on the bus stop, laughing till people scared on us...
so, my left arm (finger) feel so light and its so light because of the impact on the steel chair then it crack and place safely in my pocket (got to cari GAM GAJAH)...
so, we found a new name of ghost that lived only at Antartica and similar like her cousin in Malaysia that have a fang, but in a different way of fang and the way to suck of the blood...
so, we feel so sad and anger to the stupid giler nak mampos punyer progol, jage lah progol2 diluar sane waltianak akan hisap darah ke ape ke tak kisah laa as long as you're dead and shouldnt suppose to live in this harmony world...
so, the "M" alphabet make our language into a kind of alien language not makhluk kaki yaa!!hamahamhama...
the "M" days gone wild and crazy for us ;-)
p/s:whats your program tonite? PINAKELADA nak? joms? humuhumuhumu
so, we gone crazy on the bus stop, laughing till people scared on us...
so, my left arm (finger) feel so light and its so light because of the impact on the steel chair then it crack and place safely in my pocket (got to cari GAM GAJAH)...
so, we found a new name of ghost that lived only at Antartica and similar like her cousin in Malaysia that have a fang, but in a different way of fang and the way to suck of the blood...
so, we feel so sad and anger to the stupid giler nak mampos punyer progol, jage lah progol2 diluar sane waltianak akan hisap darah ke ape ke tak kisah laa as long as you're dead and shouldnt suppose to live in this harmony world...
so, the "M" alphabet make our language into a kind of alien language not makhluk kaki yaa!!hamahamhama...
the "M" days gone wild and crazy for us ;-)
p/s:whats your program tonite? PINAKELADA nak? joms? humuhumuhumu
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Colorful paper in my office
pick the yellow paper
compile it with detail paper
in a proper angle of height and witdh
then *KACHAAKK*, the sound of stappler emerge and breaking the noise of my Mp3
the hand of me right and left is no longer talking each other
except now in this moment, when they talking each other on the keyboard
after the stapple process finish, then the hard work of right hand begin to cramp
its all because of writing the numbers and the codes on the yellow paper
that yellow paper is a trouble maker that seems to make me arise the tension of boredom
today, the level was quite difficult even some might say it is just about the yelow paper, stapple and pen
give me a break! if i can i dont wanna see the yellow paper, but if i dont see the yellow i will be meet the green paper
what a colorful life of paper in my office
can you imagine it?
pick the yellow paper
compile it with detail paper
in a proper angle of height and witdh
then *KACHAAKK*, the sound of stappler emerge and breaking the noise of my Mp3
the hand of me right and left is no longer talking each other
except now in this moment, when they talking each other on the keyboard
after the stapple process finish, then the hard work of right hand begin to cramp
its all because of writing the numbers and the codes on the yellow paper
that yellow paper is a trouble maker that seems to make me arise the tension of boredom
today, the level was quite difficult even some might say it is just about the yelow paper, stapple and pen
give me a break! if i can i dont wanna see the yellow paper, but if i dont see the yellow i will be meet the green paper
what a colorful life of paper in my office
can you imagine it?
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Ulser Go Away From Her!!
kamu! dont makan bende2 pedas cam 'tomyam' ek nanti saket lagi lidah kamu tuh. drink a lot of water yaa. if i can jd kecik mcm 'honey i shrunk the kids' i sure masuk dalam lidah kamu ngan lawan ngan sume2 makhluk2 ulser tuh.. cam iklan 'vitagen' tuh pakei sut angkasawan ala2 sheikh muzaffar shah *eh betul ke name die eja cam ni?* but i cant jd kecik cam tuh aiyark!! anyway take care ya ;) harap kamu cepat sembuh yaa...
kamu! dont makan bende2 pedas cam 'tomyam' ek nanti saket lagi lidah kamu tuh. drink a lot of water yaa. if i can jd kecik mcm 'honey i shrunk the kids' i sure masuk dalam lidah kamu ngan lawan ngan sume2 makhluk2 ulser tuh.. cam iklan 'vitagen' tuh pakei sut angkasawan ala2 sheikh muzaffar shah *eh betul ke name die eja cam ni?* but i cant jd kecik cam tuh aiyark!! anyway take care ya ;) harap kamu cepat sembuh yaa...
Love you mom
Mom...is love...
Mummy....is love...
Mother...is love...
Mama...is love...
All words are same...
At mother...
Mother is same for love...
Love is same for mother...
Same with same...
With love...
p/s: suddenly I think about my mother at my cold office and i really really miss and love her... can't wait to go balik kampung this Raya Haji... love you mom!
Mom...is love...
Mummy....is love...
Mother...is love...
Mama...is love...
All words are same...
At mother...
Mother is same for love...
Love is same for mother...
Same with same...
With love...
p/s: suddenly I think about my mother at my cold office and i really really miss and love her... can't wait to go balik kampung this Raya Haji... love you mom!
Monday, November 12, 2007
Cool n Hot
memula sejuk bagai antartika sampai my head pun da nk naik pasif membeku mate pon bleh jd ice (ABC) lama gak xmkn ABC kan kan uwiuwiuwi!!... pastu skang ni panas lak bagaikan gurun sahara tak pun mcm kat egypt duduuk dalam piramid tu sambil pakai 10 lapis baju OR jaket bulu kambing biri-biri.. sooo hotttt!!!
lagi nak tambah hot my 1st cek tuk gaji bulan 10 xmasuk lagi, ni la masalah nye nih..adeih tolong laaa...adeh cakap kat blog pun, blog xleh help me kuarkan cek tu wakaka.. arini da la xlunch mkn kat umah je laa kene laa ikat perot jd cam waktu-waktu study dulu wahaha klaka2, keje da keje sen xmasyuk lagi arrggghhh tension nyer my head ni rase cam nk bom je tmpt ni... seb baek C4 xder yang ade just CIA and FBI jer cesh!!
but yesterday is kinda cool for me and ofcourse for you too isnt it? one-one-eleven will be the next feveret word for years and years ahead to come!! WATASHIHA URESHII.. OMAESAN, ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU from the bottom of my heart!!
memula sejuk bagai antartika sampai my head pun da nk naik pasif membeku mate pon bleh jd ice (ABC) lama gak xmkn ABC kan kan uwiuwiuwi!!... pastu skang ni panas lak bagaikan gurun sahara tak pun mcm kat egypt duduuk dalam piramid tu sambil pakai 10 lapis baju OR jaket bulu kambing biri-biri.. sooo hotttt!!!
lagi nak tambah hot my 1st cek tuk gaji bulan 10 xmasuk lagi, ni la masalah nye nih..adeih tolong laaa...adeh cakap kat blog pun, blog xleh help me kuarkan cek tu wakaka.. arini da la xlunch mkn kat umah je laa kene laa ikat perot jd cam waktu-waktu study dulu wahaha klaka2, keje da keje sen xmasyuk lagi arrggghhh tension nyer my head ni rase cam nk bom je tmpt ni... seb baek C4 xder yang ade just CIA and FBI jer cesh!!
but yesterday is kinda cool for me and ofcourse for you too isnt it? one-one-eleven will be the next feveret word for years and years ahead to come!! WATASHIHA URESHII.. OMAESAN, ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU from the bottom of my heart!!
Friday, November 09, 2007
Can..Cant
finally i say what i suppose to say,
finally i relieve of it,
finally i feel happy of it,
finally i struck with a million of questions that i dont know what is the true answer,
finally it gave me a chance to understand of me,
finally and surely im in a floating sky.. waiting to drop myself down from sky,
finally... whether im gonna survive or i will be explode like a smooth tomatos,
finally its me and its you in a word that i never said to others...
in the end... i just wait, listen and understand your answers... in the puzzled emotion of myself, can i? or cant i? ups and downs of my life!!
i try to puzzle the pieces of my brain that leading me to the answer
p/s: i dont know what to feel cause im so scared and im so dont know what to do here stuck in the office
finally i say what i suppose to say,
finally i relieve of it,
finally i feel happy of it,
finally i struck with a million of questions that i dont know what is the true answer,
finally it gave me a chance to understand of me,
finally and surely im in a floating sky.. waiting to drop myself down from sky,
finally... whether im gonna survive or i will be explode like a smooth tomatos,
finally its me and its you in a word that i never said to others...
in the end... i just wait, listen and understand your answers... in the puzzled emotion of myself, can i? or cant i? ups and downs of my life!!
i try to puzzle the pieces of my brain that leading me to the answer
p/s: i dont know what to feel cause im so scared and im so dont know what to do here stuck in the office
Monday, November 05, 2007
Otak baru nak refresh akibat demam
Demam seharian memang ku rasakan seakan lumpuh
Tapi hari ini aku kembali beraksi (95%)...
Kembali ke tempat kerja yang penuh dengan kerja..
Yang bersepah-sepah macam nak kene panggil DBKL je,
MAK OI! terkejut aku di buatnyer,
Ada la akak ni kata ada "Mawi" perform kat bawah blok,
Menjerit-jerit cam anak dara! haih sabaq je laaa..
Semua akak2 dan makcik2 turun bawah nak tengok...
Mawi berjoget sambil nyayi... takpa laa tu hak diorang!
Diorang suke ape yang diorang nak,
Janji selagi diorang tak kacau aku, ok laa!!
Haih mana lak bos aku nih!?
Aku nak start key in data memerlukan authority card die,
Ni yang bosan ni dok kat kerusi sambil layan lagu..
Pastu berkhayal haha bukan layan pil khayal ok!!
Time keje pun sket lagi nk abes, pasni jumpa my bro...
Teman dia pi beli anak tikus kasi ular dia makan (BOA PYTHON)
Then pick up my sis kat school then off me to nilai...
Selamat hari isnin...
Demam seharian memang ku rasakan seakan lumpuh
Tapi hari ini aku kembali beraksi (95%)...
Kembali ke tempat kerja yang penuh dengan kerja..
Yang bersepah-sepah macam nak kene panggil DBKL je,
MAK OI! terkejut aku di buatnyer,
Ada la akak ni kata ada "Mawi" perform kat bawah blok,
Menjerit-jerit cam anak dara! haih sabaq je laaa..
Semua akak2 dan makcik2 turun bawah nak tengok...
Mawi berjoget sambil nyayi... takpa laa tu hak diorang!
Diorang suke ape yang diorang nak,
Janji selagi diorang tak kacau aku, ok laa!!
Haih mana lak bos aku nih!?
Aku nak start key in data memerlukan authority card die,
Ni yang bosan ni dok kat kerusi sambil layan lagu..
Pastu berkhayal haha bukan layan pil khayal ok!!
Time keje pun sket lagi nk abes, pasni jumpa my bro...
Teman dia pi beli anak tikus kasi ular dia makan (BOA PYTHON)
Then pick up my sis kat school then off me to nilai...
Selamat hari isnin...
Friday, November 02, 2007
Omaesan oyobi Ware
I know we are meant to be
You know I am perfect for you
And I know you are perfect for me.
Never let me go,
My love for you is forever
This you already know.
I will always love you
Because when you came in my life
My feelings were brand new.
I know you are true
Because you are always near
And never make me feel blue.
You and I have been together for a long time
Maybe it is because I know you are the one for me
Since you never have left my mind.
You know how to make my day
Every night before I go to sleep
I ask the Lord for you to never leave me; as I pray.
I took a chance on us
I realized that I love you
And you I can always trust.
It will be you and me
Forever in my mind
I hope this you can see.
You are the person that can brighten my day
And for that
I always want you to stay.
I know we are meant to be
You know I am perfect for you
And I know you are perfect for me.
Never let me go,
My love for you is forever
This you already know.
I will always love you
Because when you came in my life
My feelings were brand new.
I know you are true
Because you are always near
And never make me feel blue.
You and I have been together for a long time
Maybe it is because I know you are the one for me
Since you never have left my mind.
You know how to make my day
Every night before I go to sleep
I ask the Lord for you to never leave me; as I pray.
I took a chance on us
I realized that I love you
And you I can always trust.
It will be you and me
Forever in my mind
I hope this you can see.
You are the person that can brighten my day
And for that
I always want you to stay.
Genap 1 tahun untuk aku
5 minit lagi menunjukan aku sudah mengenapkan satu lagi tahun untuk diri aku,
tapi ia berbeza dari tahun-tahun yang sudah... tahun lalu adalah memori tahun
sebelum itu adalah memori juga, namun satu pun tiada erti untuk aku meneruskan
nafas aku ini, aku bernafas hanyalah untuk aku dan untuk jiwaku saja... tiada apa,
tiada siapa, tiada benda, tiada aku didalam aku... hanyalah pedih dan luka yang
masih beku didalam, tiada siapa yang mengerti tentang jiwa hanyalah aku dan aku
disini seorang...
Aku pun kurang pasti apa yang aku nak post, hanya untuk menyatakan aku sudah genap
26 tahun... 26 tahun yang mungkin akan merubah aku, membentuk aku, menghargai aku,
mendalami aku dan pada 26 tahun ini aku merasakan sesuatu yang tidak pernah aku
rasakan selama ini...mungkinkah ia berlaku? mungkinkah ia terjadi? mungkinkah
ia terjawab segala persoalan aku selama ini? Ya! Ya! Ya! ia pasti akan terjadi! 26 tahun
akan membuka satu cerita yang baru untuk aku dan dia, cerita yang sama sekali berbeza
dari orang lain. cerita yang akan memberi keindahan, ketulusan dan perhatian... well,
its kinda late now, i better turn my brain n eyes off tomorrow ada ber bundle2 lagi work
nak kene siap... 26 of me, comes to gather all new fresh memory and life...
happy old day to me! satu, dua, tiga, *make a wish* yeay!yeay!yeay!
p/s: arigatou kamu ;-), anything let me know ok?
5 minit lagi menunjukan aku sudah mengenapkan satu lagi tahun untuk diri aku,
tapi ia berbeza dari tahun-tahun yang sudah... tahun lalu adalah memori tahun
sebelum itu adalah memori juga, namun satu pun tiada erti untuk aku meneruskan
nafas aku ini, aku bernafas hanyalah untuk aku dan untuk jiwaku saja... tiada apa,
tiada siapa, tiada benda, tiada aku didalam aku... hanyalah pedih dan luka yang
masih beku didalam, tiada siapa yang mengerti tentang jiwa hanyalah aku dan aku
disini seorang...
Aku pun kurang pasti apa yang aku nak post, hanya untuk menyatakan aku sudah genap
26 tahun... 26 tahun yang mungkin akan merubah aku, membentuk aku, menghargai aku,
mendalami aku dan pada 26 tahun ini aku merasakan sesuatu yang tidak pernah aku
rasakan selama ini...mungkinkah ia berlaku? mungkinkah ia terjadi? mungkinkah
ia terjawab segala persoalan aku selama ini? Ya! Ya! Ya! ia pasti akan terjadi! 26 tahun
akan membuka satu cerita yang baru untuk aku dan dia, cerita yang sama sekali berbeza
dari orang lain. cerita yang akan memberi keindahan, ketulusan dan perhatian... well,
its kinda late now, i better turn my brain n eyes off tomorrow ada ber bundle2 lagi work
nak kene siap... 26 of me, comes to gather all new fresh memory and life...
happy old day to me! satu, dua, tiga, *make a wish* yeay!yeay!yeay!
p/s: arigatou kamu ;-), anything let me know ok?
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
The journey of the writing writer continue...
Its been a long time i didnt continue my writing about the journey of my life. And its
kinda.. i found the path that i should go on and walking there without turning back,
without a doubt and anything that will block my path towards the light... the light that
i've been watching from far that im so admired on it and amazed on it. the light now
become more bright to lead me together inside the door that will end... end of my
journey of seeking and experience the pain and the cuts that i've been through.
When i watch the sky i can sense of it, the sense of existing of you, when my feet
touch the ground, i know i will stand still on it and of i hope we'll hold on tiht together
to make up something, i mean something special about the door that both of us will
open it. and we will make it through together with the light that you always carry
no matter where you go...
Thats all for tonight, and this is kind a weird writing to understand even i also
sometimes confuse about what i writing here hahaha!!! the writing writer has finally
come back to bleed his finger on a keyboard...
p/s: take care and have a nice day cant wait on this 7th, i'll try to make it... GAMBATTE!!!
Its been a long time i didnt continue my writing about the journey of my life. And its
kinda.. i found the path that i should go on and walking there without turning back,
without a doubt and anything that will block my path towards the light... the light that
i've been watching from far that im so admired on it and amazed on it. the light now
become more bright to lead me together inside the door that will end... end of my
journey of seeking and experience the pain and the cuts that i've been through.
When i watch the sky i can sense of it, the sense of existing of you, when my feet
touch the ground, i know i will stand still on it and of i hope we'll hold on tiht together
to make up something, i mean something special about the door that both of us will
open it. and we will make it through together with the light that you always carry
no matter where you go...
Thats all for tonight, and this is kind a weird writing to understand even i also
sometimes confuse about what i writing here hahaha!!! the writing writer has finally
come back to bleed his finger on a keyboard...
p/s: take care and have a nice day cant wait on this 7th, i'll try to make it... GAMBATTE!!!
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Monday, May 21, 2007
Anugerah Terindah Yang Pernah Kumiliki
aku baru jer abes tgk muvie freedom writers, kinda cool true story and aku sker giler ngan character yang Hillary Swank bawak iaitu Erin Gruwell.. respect gler kat dier yg mane tlah brani tuk mengajar stoden die yg agak gler prangai memasing, racial prejudice, mentality and psychology abuse, dimana stoden2 Erin ni lalui dan byk lagi aspek yg cube si Erin di bwat tuk prubahan stoden die dari negative to positive laahh... yang aku sker part die suh stoden die tulis dlm journal ape yg derang rase, from past till present anything yg derang rase nak tulis, so dengan itu stoden die dpt mengisahkan perjlnan hidup dan setiap kejadian baik atau buruk yg berlaku atas diri mereke sendiri. actually writing ni best, actually die dpt meluahkan isihati kite yg mana kalau kite nk ckp tu, mmg xterdaya kecuali dengan setiap abjad yg terjadinya perkataan, jika disimpan kat dlm tuh bahaye gak, coz it will make us more and more hurting the feeling inside pastu jadilah bende2 yg xsepatutnyer jadik.. ermm!
so, im take my time here to write what i wanna write about myself, my environment, my ups and downs and all the factors that impact myself to be like this... dalam sume post yg pernah aku post kan kat sini sumenyer datang dari lubuk hati aku sendiri, dari aku belajar menulis dlm diary hingga lah aku post kat dlm blog nih, it just a simple words but sometimes it really impact myself untill now... kire kebykan post kat dlm blog ni pon adalah hasil 3 tahun aku kat MMU. ape yang aku rasai dan ape yang aku lalui sume tuh adalah wasiat dan tinggalan tuk org2 yg bace blog aku nih.. kebykan nyer sume adalah berdasarkan emosi. haih skang da nak abes da kat MMU aku rindu kat sume bende2 yg aku lalui biler aku bace balik post2 aku yang lepas2 terase cam xnak berpisah pada saat tu, tp kite xberkuase nak bwat bende diluar jangkaan manusia, kite just keep on living and trying da best until we lost our breath... FYP pon settle already, BHM pon same gak lega rase nyer... Alhamdulillah!
teringat aku kat seseorg time2 gini, aiseh jiwangs la plak ahaks... ;)) aku nyalakan rokok sambil menulis ape yg aku nk cakap, saat2 biler aku bersame die aku rase best sangat, xder org lain best selain aku... bler aku kuar ngan die aku rase die adalah seseorg special tuk aku and aku la bodyguard die yang paling best and i will protect her no matter what, bler kuar aku mkn ngan die, aku slalu perhatikan mata dan mulut die aku tahu yang die ade something nk cakap, kadang2 bler aku pandang die sampei aku pon da terbang kemane2 tah le aku terbang ke Paris kots hahaaha... tp sebenarnya aku xtau camner nak ckp dan camner nk buat.. :| im just a total loser! tu yg slalu aku cakapkan kat diriku... oh man! i wish that she was mine, but somehow aku rase cam aku cuber tuk jauhkan diriku kat die sbab aku tau aku xbleh lakukan, why! why! hish! da pukul 6.10am aku still dok merapu menghaban kat dlm blog nih.. god! i wish that she know what is deep inside my heart rite now.. ishh sudah la tuh aku tetaplah aku begini, kamu tetaplah kamu begitu!
aku baru jer abes tgk muvie freedom writers, kinda cool true story and aku sker giler ngan character yang Hillary Swank bawak iaitu Erin Gruwell.. respect gler kat dier yg mane tlah brani tuk mengajar stoden die yg agak gler prangai memasing, racial prejudice, mentality and psychology abuse, dimana stoden2 Erin ni lalui dan byk lagi aspek yg cube si Erin di bwat tuk prubahan stoden die dari negative to positive laahh... yang aku sker part die suh stoden die tulis dlm journal ape yg derang rase, from past till present anything yg derang rase nak tulis, so dengan itu stoden die dpt mengisahkan perjlnan hidup dan setiap kejadian baik atau buruk yg berlaku atas diri mereke sendiri. actually writing ni best, actually die dpt meluahkan isihati kite yg mana kalau kite nk ckp tu, mmg xterdaya kecuali dengan setiap abjad yg terjadinya perkataan, jika disimpan kat dlm tuh bahaye gak, coz it will make us more and more hurting the feeling inside pastu jadilah bende2 yg xsepatutnyer jadik.. ermm!
so, im take my time here to write what i wanna write about myself, my environment, my ups and downs and all the factors that impact myself to be like this... dalam sume post yg pernah aku post kan kat sini sumenyer datang dari lubuk hati aku sendiri, dari aku belajar menulis dlm diary hingga lah aku post kat dlm blog nih, it just a simple words but sometimes it really impact myself untill now... kire kebykan post kat dlm blog ni pon adalah hasil 3 tahun aku kat MMU. ape yang aku rasai dan ape yang aku lalui sume tuh adalah wasiat dan tinggalan tuk org2 yg bace blog aku nih.. kebykan nyer sume adalah berdasarkan emosi. haih skang da nak abes da kat MMU aku rindu kat sume bende2 yg aku lalui biler aku bace balik post2 aku yang lepas2 terase cam xnak berpisah pada saat tu, tp kite xberkuase nak bwat bende diluar jangkaan manusia, kite just keep on living and trying da best until we lost our breath... FYP pon settle already, BHM pon same gak lega rase nyer... Alhamdulillah!
teringat aku kat seseorg time2 gini, aiseh jiwangs la plak ahaks... ;)) aku nyalakan rokok sambil menulis ape yg aku nk cakap, saat2 biler aku bersame die aku rase best sangat, xder org lain best selain aku... bler aku kuar ngan die aku rase die adalah seseorg special tuk aku and aku la bodyguard die yang paling best and i will protect her no matter what, bler kuar aku mkn ngan die, aku slalu perhatikan mata dan mulut die aku tahu yang die ade something nk cakap, kadang2 bler aku pandang die sampei aku pon da terbang kemane2 tah le aku terbang ke Paris kots hahaaha... tp sebenarnya aku xtau camner nak ckp dan camner nk buat.. :| im just a total loser! tu yg slalu aku cakapkan kat diriku... oh man! i wish that she was mine, but somehow aku rase cam aku cuber tuk jauhkan diriku kat die sbab aku tau aku xbleh lakukan, why! why! hish! da pukul 6.10am aku still dok merapu menghaban kat dlm blog nih.. god! i wish that she know what is deep inside my heart rite now.. ishh sudah la tuh aku tetaplah aku begini, kamu tetaplah kamu begitu!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Farewell
I wish you farewell,
To new and better things,
No matter how hard it is,
Never give it up.
Reach for what you want,
And you'll soar into the sky.
So long, I bid you a farewell,
No matter how hard it may be to let you go.
I'll see you again,
whether you come to visit or it's in my memories.
Never forget those who love you,
for they are always there for you.
I'm here for you.
I wish you a farewell,
To a new and more exciting adventure.
Although there will be hard times,
Forget them and remember the good ones
You had here with your family and friends.
I'll love you always.
Farewell.
I wish you farewell,
To new and better things,
No matter how hard it is,
Never give it up.
Reach for what you want,
And you'll soar into the sky.
So long, I bid you a farewell,
No matter how hard it may be to let you go.
I'll see you again,
whether you come to visit or it's in my memories.
Never forget those who love you,
for they are always there for you.
I'm here for you.
I wish you a farewell,
To a new and more exciting adventure.
Although there will be hard times,
Forget them and remember the good ones
You had here with your family and friends.
I'll love you always.
Farewell.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
War vs. Normal
We get up in the morning to enjoy a lovely breakfast
We get up in the morning to escape the gunfire
We go and play
We go and hide
We run and play games with our friends
We run and hide, in a shelter with our friends
We have lunch with our families
We perform a cremation ritual to our families
We listen to the music on our MP3
We listen to the bloodshed outside our shelter
We have dinner in peace, and silence
We have dinner caution, and suspicion
We say goodnight, before going to sleep
We pray to god, for mercy, before going to sleep
We get up in the morning to enjoy a lovely breakfast
We get up in the morning to escape the gunfire
We go and play
We go and hide
We run and play games with our friends
We run and hide, in a shelter with our friends
We have lunch with our families
We perform a cremation ritual to our families
We listen to the music on our MP3
We listen to the bloodshed outside our shelter
We have dinner in peace, and silence
We have dinner caution, and suspicion
We say goodnight, before going to sleep
We pray to god, for mercy, before going to sleep
Monday, May 14, 2007
Fantasi CINTA, dibumi realiti
Cinta itu banyak tafsirannya,
Cinta juga banyak konspirasi,
Dalam atau luar hati itu yang dikatakan cinta?
Cinta bagaikan jawapan yang mengejar soalan yang belum pasti dapat memintasnya,
Cinta adalah ilusi dalam keadaan realiti,
Namun kenapa harus kita menolak ia pergi?
Cinta datang dan cinta pergi,
Cinta adalah kamu bila dicintai,
Cinta adalah dia bila disanjungi,
Cinta itu kehidupan manusia yang waras,
Dengan cinta kita tidak akan terbabas,
Dari segala ranjau yang akan memusnahkan kita,
Iaitu benci...
p/s: tidak boleh melelapkan mata, walaupun pagi ini ada MUET... ARGGHHHH!!!
Cinta itu banyak tafsirannya,
Cinta juga banyak konspirasi,
Dalam atau luar hati itu yang dikatakan cinta?
Cinta bagaikan jawapan yang mengejar soalan yang belum pasti dapat memintasnya,
Cinta adalah ilusi dalam keadaan realiti,
Namun kenapa harus kita menolak ia pergi?
Cinta datang dan cinta pergi,
Cinta adalah kamu bila dicintai,
Cinta adalah dia bila disanjungi,
Cinta itu kehidupan manusia yang waras,
Dengan cinta kita tidak akan terbabas,
Dari segala ranjau yang akan memusnahkan kita,
Iaitu benci...
p/s: tidak boleh melelapkan mata, walaupun pagi ini ada MUET... ARGGHHHH!!!
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Life is what life is
Through all the ups, all the downs,
Some will be there, some can't be found.
If they won't care as they should, so be it.
This is life in the way that I wish to see it.
You can give your all, or you can try not.
When they decide to leave, what have you got?
You build it up, then it breaks away.
This is life in the way I see it today.
Days come and go, true hearts stay close.
Without happiness, love is an imitation at most.
You haven't stayed close, it's hard to love you,
This is life in a way that is sadly true.
To leave behind such a feeble mind,
forget it and pursue someone real.
This is my goal, and in time...
This will be life and the way that I feel.
Through all the ups, all the downs,
Some will be there, some can't be found.
If they won't care as they should, so be it.
This is life in the way that I wish to see it.
You can give your all, or you can try not.
When they decide to leave, what have you got?
You build it up, then it breaks away.
This is life in the way I see it today.
Days come and go, true hearts stay close.
Without happiness, love is an imitation at most.
You haven't stayed close, it's hard to love you,
This is life in a way that is sadly true.
To leave behind such a feeble mind,
forget it and pursue someone real.
This is my goal, and in time...
This will be life and the way that I feel.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Red and black till u lost your voice
My voice is gone, bcoz yesterday i had a great time cheering my team not "my team shebby ok" its red devil!! wah its so unpredictable when my voice gone like this, i gonna recover it before this 18th... or not, i will able to throw my voice to sing a song for "Gema". Anyway, today i have a jamming session i think today i will not standing near to the microphone laaa, coz gile nk nyayi...so today arab je laa yang melalak!! the main point is, its been a long time i didnt lost my voice but yesterday match so...so...so great! red devil forever... cayalah Ronaldo and the rest of mate!!
My voice is gone, bcoz yesterday i had a great time cheering my team not "my team shebby ok" its red devil!! wah its so unpredictable when my voice gone like this, i gonna recover it before this 18th... or not, i will able to throw my voice to sing a song for "Gema". Anyway, today i have a jamming session i think today i will not standing near to the microphone laaa, coz gile nk nyayi...so today arab je laa yang melalak!! the main point is, its been a long time i didnt lost my voice but yesterday match so...so...so great! red devil forever... cayalah Ronaldo and the rest of mate!!
Alone
Alone I drift away,
Alone I walk a thousand miles,
Alone I fall asleep,
Alone I stare at the sky,
Alone I sit under a tree,
Alone I cry.
Alone I dream of you,
Alone I hope and pray,
to God who is so merciful and powerful
to let me find my way.
Alone I drift away,
Alone I live today,
and alone I'll die someday.
p/s: I'm so alone...
Alone I drift away,
Alone I walk a thousand miles,
Alone I fall asleep,
Alone I stare at the sky,
Alone I sit under a tree,
Alone I cry.
Alone I dream of you,
Alone I hope and pray,
to God who is so merciful and powerful
to let me find my way.
Alone I drift away,
Alone I live today,
and alone I'll die someday.
p/s: I'm so alone...
Monday, April 09, 2007
Kerana dia adalah kamu
aku terpegun melihat dirimu tersenyum,
ia bagaikan menganjak diriku kembali kesitu,
namun, aku ingin menyatakannya
adakah aku adalah aku,
atau mungkin aku adalah bayangan tidurku?
selalu aku menyedari hidupku dengan memori
yang tidak pernah sama sekali luput dalam ingatan ini,
aku juga selalu didatangi dengan dejavu yang sama sekali
aku tidak pasti adakah ia benar, adakah itu pasti?
pasti untukku?!
aku terpegun bila kau ungkapkan kata-kata dari bibirmu,
ia bagaikan membawaku ke satu tempat mendengar kehebatan kicauan burung,
taktala kegembiraan menyelebungi kehadiranku,
namun, aku ingin menyatakannya
adakah dirimu benar-benar bersamaku,
atau aku sengaja menolak diriku untuk jatuh keseorangan,
didalam lubuk yang tidak akan pasti aku naik kembali
benarkah aku masih ada ruang untukmu?
atau aku hanya bermain dengan bayanganmu saja...
aku terpegun melihat dirimu tersenyum,
ia bagaikan menganjak diriku kembali kesitu,
namun, aku ingin menyatakannya
adakah aku adalah aku,
atau mungkin aku adalah bayangan tidurku?
selalu aku menyedari hidupku dengan memori
yang tidak pernah sama sekali luput dalam ingatan ini,
aku juga selalu didatangi dengan dejavu yang sama sekali
aku tidak pasti adakah ia benar, adakah itu pasti?
pasti untukku?!
aku terpegun bila kau ungkapkan kata-kata dari bibirmu,
ia bagaikan membawaku ke satu tempat mendengar kehebatan kicauan burung,
taktala kegembiraan menyelebungi kehadiranku,
namun, aku ingin menyatakannya
adakah dirimu benar-benar bersamaku,
atau aku sengaja menolak diriku untuk jatuh keseorangan,
didalam lubuk yang tidak akan pasti aku naik kembali
benarkah aku masih ada ruang untukmu?
atau aku hanya bermain dengan bayanganmu saja...
Friday, April 06, 2007
1st Round T.K.O
Finally the 1st round of FYP submission da anto!! lega tuh lega laa but somehow i dont feel so good about it... hah! now we moving towards the 2nd round of "boxing competition" this one got to be really hard to imagine in terms of mental and psychology illness, man! it should be done! hope i can grad on time, and i wish all of them a very goodluck... kepala pon da mantong this week i got to rush back home to settle a thing plus i've got no money because all of used for "war" haha nice terms!
p/s: nothing going well here especially my life... hate myself!!
Finally the 1st round of FYP submission da anto!! lega tuh lega laa but somehow i dont feel so good about it... hah! now we moving towards the 2nd round of "boxing competition" this one got to be really hard to imagine in terms of mental and psychology illness, man! it should be done! hope i can grad on time, and i wish all of them a very goodluck... kepala pon da mantong this week i got to rush back home to settle a thing plus i've got no money because all of used for "war" haha nice terms!
p/s: nothing going well here especially my life... hate myself!!
Monday, April 02, 2007
Tired eyes with crucial strength to seek
all this weeks makes me busy all day long, but somehow i've got a little time for playing cards, dota and of course mamak laa... weeks of worlds hell dominating my atmosphere, fyp...fyp that is the word of tension, repetition working, mental illness, haha and many more symptoms that we all can see for this in coming deadline of the project... now, im blogging myself to release some stress that kept inside, whether i know i can see 'tuah' hahaha. my progression of my works is now down in too a lil bit of relaxing sket laaa... but for sure i got many stuff to settle it down!! so,thats all i think!! cant wait to sleep in peaceful and harmony moment...
p/s: good luck for your submission and hope you enjoy busying urself for the FYP!!
all this weeks makes me busy all day long, but somehow i've got a little time for playing cards, dota and of course mamak laa... weeks of worlds hell dominating my atmosphere, fyp...fyp that is the word of tension, repetition working, mental illness, haha and many more symptoms that we all can see for this in coming deadline of the project... now, im blogging myself to release some stress that kept inside, whether i know i can see 'tuah' hahaha. my progression of my works is now down in too a lil bit of relaxing sket laaa... but for sure i got many stuff to settle it down!! so,thats all i think!! cant wait to sleep in peaceful and harmony moment...
p/s: good luck for your submission and hope you enjoy busying urself for the FYP!!
Monday, March 26, 2007
An audition becomes our Albarb's dream to...
Oh thank god Alhamdullilah our audition for GEMA 07 at MMU finally pass by giving us hope to perform at grand hall...(mak aih besonyer) so, our audition on last saturday is not reallt good la but we manage to perform well and to cover-up our mistake during the audition...mostly the technical part, when my guitar doesnt want to make a sound... it is all because the cable, (haih cable tuh kasik gue cuak gler)so anyway, whether my guitar skill is not perform well as i practice my back-up vocal is very..very helping me to cover the emptiness of the guitar sound... arab, hatim, mus and shuk perform well and the think that i remember that shuk is so feel of 'hukum karma' song until he over running the chord thats sound so pelik and when i stare at him automatically he mengelabah cari chord balik hahaha!! mus, played 'hukum karma' in so fast tempo whether in the pratice session he cant do the fast tempo and we all agree we play in a moderate tempo so, in audition he played in a fast tempo that surely he can beat Lars Ulrich hahaha gempak tuh... hatem, wahh he's so stim pale coz he got my fx that can make a cry baby sound and he's a great guitarist...arab, the man with humble image when it comes to praising him abut his vocal, he denied about our perception toward his vocal..but i think arab vocal is good but not good laaa to beat Abuar Zain kehkehkeh!!
and now we all struggling for our FYP but the show is in around the corner... wahh such a great moment to have and to enjoy while we can... the show is in 1st April if im not been mistaken... so, win or lose it doesnt matter now, cause the competitors also have a lots of potential to win, if we win waaaahhh it is a greatest memories laaa while we studying in MMU..
p/s: thanks for supporting me and the band and hope you will enjoy the song for finale 'sentuhan listrikmu' hehe.. and the song is dedicated to you hehehe ;) (ble tak?)
Oh thank god Alhamdullilah our audition for GEMA 07 at MMU finally pass by giving us hope to perform at grand hall...(mak aih besonyer) so, our audition on last saturday is not reallt good la but we manage to perform well and to cover-up our mistake during the audition...mostly the technical part, when my guitar doesnt want to make a sound... it is all because the cable, (haih cable tuh kasik gue cuak gler)so anyway, whether my guitar skill is not perform well as i practice my back-up vocal is very..very helping me to cover the emptiness of the guitar sound... arab, hatim, mus and shuk perform well and the think that i remember that shuk is so feel of 'hukum karma' song until he over running the chord thats sound so pelik and when i stare at him automatically he mengelabah cari chord balik hahaha!! mus, played 'hukum karma' in so fast tempo whether in the pratice session he cant do the fast tempo and we all agree we play in a moderate tempo so, in audition he played in a fast tempo that surely he can beat Lars Ulrich hahaha gempak tuh... hatem, wahh he's so stim pale coz he got my fx that can make a cry baby sound and he's a great guitarist...arab, the man with humble image when it comes to praising him abut his vocal, he denied about our perception toward his vocal..but i think arab vocal is good but not good laaa to beat Abuar Zain kehkehkeh!!
and now we all struggling for our FYP but the show is in around the corner... wahh such a great moment to have and to enjoy while we can... the show is in 1st April if im not been mistaken... so, win or lose it doesnt matter now, cause the competitors also have a lots of potential to win, if we win waaaahhh it is a greatest memories laaa while we studying in MMU..
p/s: thanks for supporting me and the band and hope you will enjoy the song for finale 'sentuhan listrikmu' hehe.. and the song is dedicated to you hehehe ;) (ble tak?)
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Could I Ever Leave You?
Could I ever leave you? Never. For
you are the air the fills me with the
breath of life and the energy that fuels
each day.
You are my laughter, my joy,
my reason for being. You are my hope,
my warmth on a cold winters night, and
the flowers that bloom in my heart.
You are my friend, my love...my life.
You are the liquid of life under a deserts
sun; my port in a storm and without you
there is but a barren wasteland of
nothingness, where laughter has died
and darkness and bitter howling winds
are forever.
Could I ever leave you. Not for all
eternity and one day thereafter, if
there be such a time.
Could I ever leave you? Never. For
you are the air the fills me with the
breath of life and the energy that fuels
each day.
You are my laughter, my joy,
my reason for being. You are my hope,
my warmth on a cold winters night, and
the flowers that bloom in my heart.
You are my friend, my love...my life.
You are the liquid of life under a deserts
sun; my port in a storm and without you
there is but a barren wasteland of
nothingness, where laughter has died
and darkness and bitter howling winds
are forever.
Could I ever leave you. Not for all
eternity and one day thereafter, if
there be such a time.
Thinking of You
I think of you every night and day
In all I do and all I say
I think of you when I’m on the air
For your music I so like to share
The beat of your music speaks to me
It shows up in my rhymes as you can see
Not all but some have just the right beat
Read them all just take a seat
You inspire me in every way
Too keep on working at it every day
Sooner or later I’ll reach my dreams
And I have you to thank, so it seems
So thank you my friend for all your support
You are my stormy port
I look to you for my inspirations
For all of my creations
I think of you every night and day
In all I do and all I say
I think of you when I’m on the air
For your music I so like to share
The beat of your music speaks to me
It shows up in my rhymes as you can see
Not all but some have just the right beat
Read them all just take a seat
You inspire me in every way
Too keep on working at it every day
Sooner or later I’ll reach my dreams
And I have you to thank, so it seems
So thank you my friend for all your support
You are my stormy port
I look to you for my inspirations
For all of my creations
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Everything that i want is you
im sorry because of my moves
im sorry because of my bad images
im sorry because of my reaction
im sorry to make you feel down like this
im sorry to make your heart break
i know that im so idiot to myself
i know that im so dumb to you
once again im sorry to make you tears going down on your cheeks
please forgive me... i begging this to you...
we'll start this all over again... without making you sad or cry...
p/s: mintak ampun yaaa! ;)
im sorry because of my moves
im sorry because of my bad images
im sorry because of my reaction
im sorry to make you feel down like this
im sorry to make your heart break
i know that im so idiot to myself
i know that im so dumb to you
once again im sorry to make you tears going down on your cheeks
please forgive me... i begging this to you...
we'll start this all over again... without making you sad or cry...
p/s: mintak ampun yaaa! ;)
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Alive Or Just Breathing?
sudah lama aku meninggalkan blog aku nih.. tanpa dibaca, tanpa diusik, tanpa dihayati. aku sendiri pun tak pasti, tapi apa yang boleh aku katakan ialah aku kembali kerana perkataan adalah kehidupan yang pasti! bebaru ni aku ada a lots of problem yang aku rasa sedih, putus asa, and many more negative impact on it... aku kesian kat family walaupun pada kawan2 aku mereka nampak aku ok, but aku try nak hide hanya kat blog ni je aku try tulis apa yang boleh aku rasakan... tekanan demi tekanan aku kene and ofcourse my famiy too.
aku harap Allah akan memberi kekuatan kepada kami semua utk carry on our life ni... dan menginsafkan mereka2 yang tidak tahu bertaubat demi memuaskan nafsu hasad dengki mereka terhadap kami.. aku sendiri pun binggung kat atas dunia ni macam2 hal yang diluar pemikiran manusia mampu dilakukan.. takper aku redha dan aku tawakal kepadaMu.. hanya dengan menulis perkataan aku ni kat blog akan meredakan sedikit masalah yg aku simpan selama ini yg aku rasa berat untuk dikatakan...
p/s: think the way it should...
sudah lama aku meninggalkan blog aku nih.. tanpa dibaca, tanpa diusik, tanpa dihayati. aku sendiri pun tak pasti, tapi apa yang boleh aku katakan ialah aku kembali kerana perkataan adalah kehidupan yang pasti! bebaru ni aku ada a lots of problem yang aku rasa sedih, putus asa, and many more negative impact on it... aku kesian kat family walaupun pada kawan2 aku mereka nampak aku ok, but aku try nak hide hanya kat blog ni je aku try tulis apa yang boleh aku rasakan... tekanan demi tekanan aku kene and ofcourse my famiy too.
aku harap Allah akan memberi kekuatan kepada kami semua utk carry on our life ni... dan menginsafkan mereka2 yang tidak tahu bertaubat demi memuaskan nafsu hasad dengki mereka terhadap kami.. aku sendiri pun binggung kat atas dunia ni macam2 hal yang diluar pemikiran manusia mampu dilakukan.. takper aku redha dan aku tawakal kepadaMu.. hanya dengan menulis perkataan aku ni kat blog akan meredakan sedikit masalah yg aku simpan selama ini yg aku rasa berat untuk dikatakan...
p/s: think the way it should...
Monday, December 18, 2006
Thursday, December 14, 2006
A chat with depression
Look here.
Do you know who the hell I am?
I am no friend and am no lamb.
I am here to destroy you.
I am no friend.
I am the enemy.
Im the devil in disguise.
Im The devil in the darkness.
Im the warrior that destroys.
I am depression.
You will never be free.
I will be with you for ever.
So now do you know who I am?
I am deppression
Worse than the devil
I am the devil in disguise
So now be wise
p/s: i'm talking with it! and i'm seriously shocked now!
Look here.
Do you know who the hell I am?
I am no friend and am no lamb.
I am here to destroy you.
I am no friend.
I am the enemy.
Im the devil in disguise.
Im The devil in the darkness.
Im the warrior that destroys.
I am depression.
You will never be free.
I will be with you for ever.
So now do you know who I am?
I am deppression
Worse than the devil
I am the devil in disguise
So now be wise
p/s: i'm talking with it! and i'm seriously shocked now!
Alone in my own world
I sit here alone,
in this dark place.
My mind has gone crazy,
my heart's in a race.
I sit here alone,
with my thoughts gone mad.
I feel I'm insane,
my life's turned bad.
I sit here alone,
as people pass by.
I scream to be heard,
but can't and cry.
I sit here alone,
I'm all messed up.
I have no control,
It's time to give up.
I sit here alone,
I can't hold on.
I'm losing my grasp,
My sanity's gone.
I sit here alone,
My freedom is here,
The struggle is over,
I won't shed a tear.
I sit here alone,
I shall never see light.
I have only darkness,
In my own world tonight.
I sit here alone,
in this dark place.
My mind has gone crazy,
my heart's in a race.
I sit here alone,
with my thoughts gone mad.
I feel I'm insane,
my life's turned bad.
I sit here alone,
as people pass by.
I scream to be heard,
but can't and cry.
I sit here alone,
I'm all messed up.
I have no control,
It's time to give up.
I sit here alone,
I can't hold on.
I'm losing my grasp,
My sanity's gone.
I sit here alone,
My freedom is here,
The struggle is over,
I won't shed a tear.
I sit here alone,
I shall never see light.
I have only darkness,
In my own world tonight.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Plenty of anger
There is plenty of anger inside of me
It has to stop
Why is there so much anger inside of me?
My anger is part of my frustration
I have to control it now
My anger causes me plenty of trouble
There is plenty of anger inside of me
And what is anger do I know?
Anger is a strong feeling of displasure
It is a grief that I have inside of me
How can I control it?
What triggers my anger?
Can I recognize it?
There is plenty of anger inside of me
It has to stop
Why is there so much anger inside of me?
My anger is part of my frustration
I have to control it now
My anger causes me plenty of trouble
There is plenty of anger inside of me
And what is anger do I know?
Anger is a strong feeling of displasure
It is a grief that I have inside of me
How can I control it?
What triggers my anger?
Can I recognize it?
Friday, December 08, 2006
Finished and Something to do
at last i finished my presentation today.. it was great to feel that im free now, just for now okayy! gotta practice my guitar cause today i got jamm session haih release all the pain and the suffering that i been through!
p/s: heart broken is just a simple kinda of pain that i always been through! knowing someone that i suppose to make me crazy and down all day long! so got to do sumthing better now... cheers guys :D
at last i finished my presentation today.. it was great to feel that im free now, just for now okayy! gotta practice my guitar cause today i got jamm session haih release all the pain and the suffering that i been through!
p/s: heart broken is just a simple kinda of pain that i always been through! knowing someone that i suppose to make me crazy and down all day long! so got to do sumthing better now... cheers guys :D
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
All sucked-up
empty already my ideas to write down the situation analysis + executive summary = web based! Gotta continue it tonite, or else im dead! wahh! i hope guys also do what you suppose to do erk! gotta motivated myself to finish up this task before thursday... please god give me some strength to face all that happen to me lately...
empty already my ideas to write down the situation analysis + executive summary = web based! Gotta continue it tonite, or else im dead! wahh! i hope guys also do what you suppose to do erk! gotta motivated myself to finish up this task before thursday... please god give me some strength to face all that happen to me lately...
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Again with some agony situation
play arround with words and smile
sometimes can make us a lil' bit of distracting
toward something that we are ahead
lie, hate, its all about to be change into pretending matters
whether it is such a nonsense action been taken
trust, love, its all the bottom line here whether you want it
or you lose it, try not to wanting it to be lose
here, there, and every inch on the earth that you step
i will hear for it, whether you dont want me to hear it
i will never see you again in the next resurrection
so lie, hate, trust and love will be my next companion
like it or hate it, it shall be one of us!
welcome to my next journey into the ages of agony
that always welcoming me into it and jailed me in it!
lights will be never be seen again when i enter it...
welcome home cj,and its a home for you to breakout!
through your journey...
play arround with words and smile
sometimes can make us a lil' bit of distracting
toward something that we are ahead
lie, hate, its all about to be change into pretending matters
whether it is such a nonsense action been taken
trust, love, its all the bottom line here whether you want it
or you lose it, try not to wanting it to be lose
here, there, and every inch on the earth that you step
i will hear for it, whether you dont want me to hear it
i will never see you again in the next resurrection
so lie, hate, trust and love will be my next companion
like it or hate it, it shall be one of us!
welcome to my next journey into the ages of agony
that always welcoming me into it and jailed me in it!
lights will be never be seen again when i enter it...
welcome home cj,and its a home for you to breakout!
through your journey...
Monday, November 27, 2006
emo in the morning
am i such a fool?
or maybe im such an idiot?
downing myself with the words that make me such a broken heart people
why? should i live in the world of loser?
can i be like those people that always in free and been loved?
i like this! whether deep inside i know, i much more than this
10,11,12 whatever it that im always be like im used to be
such ashame! such a loser, what should it takes to be something to be mine
the quiet things that no one ever know except me and god
p/s:such a crap post i posted today right? nevermind i write what i feel about it :(
am i such a fool?
or maybe im such an idiot?
downing myself with the words that make me such a broken heart people
why? should i live in the world of loser?
can i be like those people that always in free and been loved?
i like this! whether deep inside i know, i much more than this
10,11,12 whatever it that im always be like im used to be
such ashame! such a loser, what should it takes to be something to be mine
the quiet things that no one ever know except me and god
p/s:such a crap post i posted today right? nevermind i write what i feel about it :(
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
THANK YOU
thank you, amy i really love that t-shirt...
kinda nice design with the flying tiger...wakaka cute!
thank you again for remembering my birthday!!
i love it and i like it and im speechless!!
only a word of "THANK YOU" that really mean how deep it is!
p/s: 1st ever girl that give me a present for my birthday (amy)
next year nak lagi ble?? hehe kidding...
thank you, amy i really love that t-shirt...
kinda nice design with the flying tiger...wakaka cute!
thank you again for remembering my birthday!!
i love it and i like it and im speechless!!
only a word of "THANK YOU" that really mean how deep it is!
p/s: 1st ever girl that give me a present for my birthday (amy)
next year nak lagi ble?? hehe kidding...
Friday, November 10, 2006
T-E-N-N-I-S
haha! a good class from MR LEE, our tennis sifu! so otai you know... today practice was damn good, we were been told be ply half court and practice to hit the ball, but one of my friend, wahwahwah he hit the ball like hes playing full court! wahwahwah not that all he claim himself as roger federer kahkahkah! but its ok la if he is federer so i am boris baker la! the otai one! we practice in about 20 to 30 min and its damn give me a really sweat like rainning.. but im gonna like it tennis class, at least i work up once in a week!haha! great tennis, and great people there (amoi2nyer) hahaha!!
p/s: one day, i will head-to-head with MR GHAZ aka SAMPRAS kots?? can i win it?
haha! a good class from MR LEE, our tennis sifu! so otai you know... today practice was damn good, we were been told be ply half court and practice to hit the ball, but one of my friend, wahwahwah he hit the ball like hes playing full court! wahwahwah not that all he claim himself as roger federer kahkahkah! but its ok la if he is federer so i am boris baker la! the otai one! we practice in about 20 to 30 min and its damn give me a really sweat like rainning.. but im gonna like it tennis class, at least i work up once in a week!haha! great tennis, and great people there (amoi2nyer) hahaha!!
p/s: one day, i will head-to-head with MR GHAZ aka SAMPRAS kots?? can i win it?
Friday, November 03, 2006
Time after time
so, after all im gone here now im back again... with a good holiday and very good life, i think?! erm, so my life again and again continue whats suppose it done, its like a routine everyday when i woke up! yesterday is 25 for me, next year 26...OMG im getting older and older but still cant reach what i suppose to reach, but anyway most of it i already archieve it. this blog i write it today using my new CPU that i bought it at low yatt where PCs thing might come cheaper than you thought... wahwahwah best gak quotation nihkan? "low yatt where PCs thing might come cheaper than you thought" hahaha! actually this new heart is for my final project that will make my head more and more pressure like hell! so, i made it to my final year studying at MMU and all those days i gonna miss it... and i should miss it really much the memories the anger the sadness and the happiest day there!
so, i like my life but sometimes i gotta pretend to like it and i know that i hate it... i gotta admit it that i dont like people see me in other way! hrmm! bout my final project proposal hahha thats kinda playing arround my head right now, MAN 3 proposal!!! sound like easy but its hell hard MAN!!! haha you what last 2 trimester i take japs language but i couldnt take it so i drop it and for this trimester surely i gotta take subject more to sports, i mean badminton! hahha lame gler xmaen badminton dowh!! i heard that badminton physical fitness is the most toughest test u gonna through... but i will whether i know my knee background is not perfect enough to play! hahaha i hope my knee will stick together wawkaka...
owhh well im getting older and older and im proud of it cause the younger days make me grow stronger and stronger and make me believe that i have something in my life that i should let it go to have it! so, till we meet again and for those is reading my blog i love you and i will love you no matter where you are, cause i believe in it!
p/s: me old...me old...me old...me old...me old...
so, after all im gone here now im back again... with a good holiday and very good life, i think?! erm, so my life again and again continue whats suppose it done, its like a routine everyday when i woke up! yesterday is 25 for me, next year 26...OMG im getting older and older but still cant reach what i suppose to reach, but anyway most of it i already archieve it. this blog i write it today using my new CPU that i bought it at low yatt where PCs thing might come cheaper than you thought... wahwahwah best gak quotation nihkan? "low yatt where PCs thing might come cheaper than you thought" hahaha! actually this new heart is for my final project that will make my head more and more pressure like hell! so, i made it to my final year studying at MMU and all those days i gonna miss it... and i should miss it really much the memories the anger the sadness and the happiest day there!
so, i like my life but sometimes i gotta pretend to like it and i know that i hate it... i gotta admit it that i dont like people see me in other way! hrmm! bout my final project proposal hahha thats kinda playing arround my head right now, MAN 3 proposal!!! sound like easy but its hell hard MAN!!! haha you what last 2 trimester i take japs language but i couldnt take it so i drop it and for this trimester surely i gotta take subject more to sports, i mean badminton! hahha lame gler xmaen badminton dowh!! i heard that badminton physical fitness is the most toughest test u gonna through... but i will whether i know my knee background is not perfect enough to play! hahaha i hope my knee will stick together wawkaka...
owhh well im getting older and older and im proud of it cause the younger days make me grow stronger and stronger and make me believe that i have something in my life that i should let it go to have it! so, till we meet again and for those is reading my blog i love you and i will love you no matter where you are, cause i believe in it!
p/s: me old...me old...me old...me old...me old...
Monday, October 02, 2006
UNO and Dunno
it been a very long time i didnt updated my journey here! too much to ask and to long to write my neverending journey toward the lights! fasting in this years might be the same in the past... nothing change much. me just me on my own with the barriers that accompany me! but im quite cofusing about myself thinking the things that it will never be happen again, so its really annoying me again and again so please keep the path clear and dont let any new barrier exist in my path again!
OMG! what am i saying, im kinda blured, i bet you people also blur with my word... but its okay nothing to worry about... and until i found my happy day i will write it down again so happy ramadhan day to all my friends out there! and hope those suppa heroes doing their job like me saving the bird ( not my bird ok ) haha calle carnale!
it been a very long time i didnt updated my journey here! too much to ask and to long to write my neverending journey toward the lights! fasting in this years might be the same in the past... nothing change much. me just me on my own with the barriers that accompany me! but im quite cofusing about myself thinking the things that it will never be happen again, so its really annoying me again and again so please keep the path clear and dont let any new barrier exist in my path again!
OMG! what am i saying, im kinda blured, i bet you people also blur with my word... but its okay nothing to worry about... and until i found my happy day i will write it down again so happy ramadhan day to all my friends out there! and hope those suppa heroes doing their job like me saving the bird ( not my bird ok ) haha calle carnale!
Thursday, September 28, 2006
My Perfect World
bright shining lights
smiling faces
laughter
music
peace and love
timeless space
deep midnight conversation
meaningless chat
my friends close by
to need and be needed
to help and be helped
to listen
my perfect world
exists in me
you're welcome to visit
to stay
pull up a chair
and together
we can see it through
p/s: thank you all!
bright shining lights
smiling faces
laughter
music
peace and love
timeless space
deep midnight conversation
meaningless chat
my friends close by
to need and be needed
to help and be helped
to listen
my perfect world
exists in me
you're welcome to visit
to stay
pull up a chair
and together
we can see it through
p/s: thank you all!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
I Am Someone
I am someone
I walked past a dead face
even though the person was alive
I saw my eyes in the mirror
and cried at the sight
I looked at a person I didn't know
and I met a friend
I got heads to turn
when I walked past
I learned a lot about myself
when I lost a new friend
I cried every tear in my body
when I thought about love
I got hit bad
then got back in the ring
I climbed a mountain of rocks
and saw an eagle fly over- head
I heard terrible things about myself
when no one thought I was listening
I realized I was strong
when I didn't cry when it hurt
I found out who I was
when I was with someone else
I thought I was lost forever
when a friend found me
I held a life in my hand
and it was my own
I was a pawn in someone else's game
so I surrendered to a brook
I walked the fine line between surviving
and not wanting to survive
I still am
I am someone
I am someone
I walked past a dead face
even though the person was alive
I saw my eyes in the mirror
and cried at the sight
I looked at a person I didn't know
and I met a friend
I got heads to turn
when I walked past
I learned a lot about myself
when I lost a new friend
I cried every tear in my body
when I thought about love
I got hit bad
then got back in the ring
I climbed a mountain of rocks
and saw an eagle fly over- head
I heard terrible things about myself
when no one thought I was listening
I realized I was strong
when I didn't cry when it hurt
I found out who I was
when I was with someone else
I thought I was lost forever
when a friend found me
I held a life in my hand
and it was my own
I was a pawn in someone else's game
so I surrendered to a brook
I walked the fine line between surviving
and not wanting to survive
I still am
I am someone
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Last Friday
at office we (me & shuk) got this new task that really off our majoring studies, want to know what? we got to create one theme song for our company's animation cartoon "cingkus the blues" haha guest what, we playing blues guitar riff and MAN i really dont familiar with blues guitar riff, so we develop a simple kind of melodic riff that suit with the lyric... actually it is not a pure blues we played but combine with rock n' roll riff that really twist your leg arround, hahaha...
then after tired with no more ideas to pour in the bowl, im off my way back home, then suddenly my friend ask me to join their futsal team cause they shorts of player haha then i think back! this past 2 weeks i didnt get a chance to make myself sweat, so its OK for me to join them... STARBUCK klcc vs STARBUCK bb... man i can feel the painful muscle after i woke up this morning! but the game was really cool everybody enjoy and have a good sweat! but today its a really sad day for me cause i got cold and some flu haih cannot go anywhere then i just put my ass down in my house for a good relaxing saturday...
p/s: run rabbit run!
at office we (me & shuk) got this new task that really off our majoring studies, want to know what? we got to create one theme song for our company's animation cartoon "cingkus the blues" haha guest what, we playing blues guitar riff and MAN i really dont familiar with blues guitar riff, so we develop a simple kind of melodic riff that suit with the lyric... actually it is not a pure blues we played but combine with rock n' roll riff that really twist your leg arround, hahaha...
then after tired with no more ideas to pour in the bowl, im off my way back home, then suddenly my friend ask me to join their futsal team cause they shorts of player haha then i think back! this past 2 weeks i didnt get a chance to make myself sweat, so its OK for me to join them... STARBUCK klcc vs STARBUCK bb... man i can feel the painful muscle after i woke up this morning! but the game was really cool everybody enjoy and have a good sweat! but today its a really sad day for me cause i got cold and some flu haih cannot go anywhere then i just put my ass down in my house for a good relaxing saturday...
p/s: run rabbit run!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Long time no see the words dancing
its hard for me to write everything in everyday, sometimes in your journey you always in hurry and forget to do what suppose to do! like me, sometimes when i wanna write it down i feel my finger no longer got a bone hekhekhek... in a short terms "lazy" kehkehkeh! so, bebaru nih i heard that my friend's blog kene delete! "artisatwerk.blogspot.com" who the hell is deleting her blog huh? haiyaa common laa brother ke sister ke i dont care la, but its a private thing and you should respect it! if you love to read just read it but if you hate just leave it but dont dont do such thing ar... grow up please!! so anyway dee, keep on writing cause the writing makes you construct your journey to where you want!
man i got 2more weeks to go! lagi nak abes intern lagi lah banyak job2 yg kene settle kan! nah common give us a break please, ramadhan is near so give la some relaxing job, lagipon da nak abes my idea got kering cause the monitor sucked up all my idea haih! so, i found nothing to write right now cause my journey stopped for a while and i got to be alone with my words and myself!
p/s: till we meet again!
its hard for me to write everything in everyday, sometimes in your journey you always in hurry and forget to do what suppose to do! like me, sometimes when i wanna write it down i feel my finger no longer got a bone hekhekhek... in a short terms "lazy" kehkehkeh! so, bebaru nih i heard that my friend's blog kene delete! "artisatwerk.blogspot.com" who the hell is deleting her blog huh? haiyaa common laa brother ke sister ke i dont care la, but its a private thing and you should respect it! if you love to read just read it but if you hate just leave it but dont dont do such thing ar... grow up please!! so anyway dee, keep on writing cause the writing makes you construct your journey to where you want!
man i got 2more weeks to go! lagi nak abes intern lagi lah banyak job2 yg kene settle kan! nah common give us a break please, ramadhan is near so give la some relaxing job, lagipon da nak abes my idea got kering cause the monitor sucked up all my idea haih! so, i found nothing to write right now cause my journey stopped for a while and i got to be alone with my words and myself!
p/s: till we meet again!
Thursday, September 07, 2006
The worst day ever
erm today im not going to my office cause of the weird things happen to me! for 1 whole day i my foot doesnt touch the world outside my house because of it. wanna know what, my eyes... something happen to it, OMG my eyes "bengkak" after i woke up in the morning... its a nightmare i look myself to the mirror and all i can see that my eyes looks like the boxers that bengkak after fighting... hah! no way i can go outside with people looking at me like that, no way! it is like an alien from outer space man! for one whole day i tried to figure out why or from where that i get bengkak! ermm maybe, when i sleep some dirty insect bite my eyes kot, or maybe my cat, ermm it cant be my cat! maybe because the allergic kots... i dont have any allergic to most foods, udang i can eat, sotong also! ermm i think it probably cause of that dirty insect la kot, but i dont know what kind of insect that really bite my eyes... i put minyak gamat on it and also ice to reduce that bengkak huiiyooo like mike tyson owhhh!!! no i can feel some ichy2 laaa... i hope tommorow it will be okay la...
p/s: for Gitv people sorry cant go to office la! nnt korang bahan aku waahhakaka... aku xdtg pon aku dok umah jer kuar nnt pon kene bahan jer baek dok umah.
erm today im not going to my office cause of the weird things happen to me! for 1 whole day i my foot doesnt touch the world outside my house because of it. wanna know what, my eyes... something happen to it, OMG my eyes "bengkak" after i woke up in the morning... its a nightmare i look myself to the mirror and all i can see that my eyes looks like the boxers that bengkak after fighting... hah! no way i can go outside with people looking at me like that, no way! it is like an alien from outer space man! for one whole day i tried to figure out why or from where that i get bengkak! ermm maybe, when i sleep some dirty insect bite my eyes kot, or maybe my cat, ermm it cant be my cat! maybe because the allergic kots... i dont have any allergic to most foods, udang i can eat, sotong also! ermm i think it probably cause of that dirty insect la kot, but i dont know what kind of insect that really bite my eyes... i put minyak gamat on it and also ice to reduce that bengkak huiiyooo like mike tyson owhhh!!! no i can feel some ichy2 laaa... i hope tommorow it will be okay la...
p/s: for Gitv people sorry cant go to office la! nnt korang bahan aku waahhakaka... aku xdtg pon aku dok umah jer kuar nnt pon kene bahan jer baek dok umah.
Monday, September 04, 2006
The Journey
watching you sleep in cold dark night with tears fall to your pillow
im flying to watch you, see you evertimes i miss you
when im back to my body i saw myself sleeping with bleeding tears and the cuts in my arms was almost bring me to hell
but im still sleeping in dark cold night
im so afraid of the gloaming moment when the time i return to myself
what happen to you? will the tears stop coming off your pillow? is it hurt?
back then, im almost blind and feel the pain that killed the hatred for a second
would you join me to share the tears? can we walk together again? or maybe i just like to be a flying me to watch you over and over again...
watching you sleep in cold dark night with tears fall to your pillow
im flying to watch you, see you evertimes i miss you
when im back to my body i saw myself sleeping with bleeding tears and the cuts in my arms was almost bring me to hell
but im still sleeping in dark cold night
im so afraid of the gloaming moment when the time i return to myself
what happen to you? will the tears stop coming off your pillow? is it hurt?
back then, im almost blind and feel the pain that killed the hatred for a second
would you join me to share the tears? can we walk together again? or maybe i just like to be a flying me to watch you over and over again...
Saturday, September 02, 2006
The Amory Wars
"Every creator painfully experiences the chasm between his inner vision and its ultimate expression"
in my journey to find a lights, i stopped... and the barrier looks like playing tricks and show some back flip that somehow i impressed of it. the walk the talk the act the emotion is like familiar to me, the kindness of mine been questioned. by the ugly barrier.im stunt with it and so why me? among all the living things there, why shouldnt you ask somebody else, they just ignored it except me that willing to stop and carefuly think about it. should i talk back? maybe i should, to let the barrier continue my journey that i always wanted. then i say yes, im kind a guy that full of kindness, but sometimes i didnt realie that the kindness of mine been ri off because of the stupidity that i dwell in it.
im so stupid to understand the concept of life, but its okay for me i know that not what i meant for my kindness. can i pass through? nop, not enough to make me do so! with all my rusty memories flashed back... im in a black holes! without any reason i open my eyes back, so what do u think about that? the barrier looks like got a hypnotize things to make people go back to pass, to refresh the memories that is never ever will be polish. i shock and amaze! then i say what did i do to deserve this? i've lost it and to find it i got to re-do my false... am i false to you? right, sy the barrier you may pass me but in your journey try to remember the things that you've been through and try to redo it...if not, you will never find the lights whether you know you are so close to it. thanks and i will do so... when im continue my walking i look back to the annoying barrier, and i can see the eyes of sadness and cried, the barrier is me and he give some words to me to learn and learn until im not a liar to myself again and always you'll be my favourite... in the searching of lights that live in the happy world of fantasy.
"Every creator painfully experiences the chasm between his inner vision and its ultimate expression"
in my journey to find a lights, i stopped... and the barrier looks like playing tricks and show some back flip that somehow i impressed of it. the walk the talk the act the emotion is like familiar to me, the kindness of mine been questioned. by the ugly barrier.im stunt with it and so why me? among all the living things there, why shouldnt you ask somebody else, they just ignored it except me that willing to stop and carefuly think about it. should i talk back? maybe i should, to let the barrier continue my journey that i always wanted. then i say yes, im kind a guy that full of kindness, but sometimes i didnt realie that the kindness of mine been ri off because of the stupidity that i dwell in it.
im so stupid to understand the concept of life, but its okay for me i know that not what i meant for my kindness. can i pass through? nop, not enough to make me do so! with all my rusty memories flashed back... im in a black holes! without any reason i open my eyes back, so what do u think about that? the barrier looks like got a hypnotize things to make people go back to pass, to refresh the memories that is never ever will be polish. i shock and amaze! then i say what did i do to deserve this? i've lost it and to find it i got to re-do my false... am i false to you? right, sy the barrier you may pass me but in your journey try to remember the things that you've been through and try to redo it...if not, you will never find the lights whether you know you are so close to it. thanks and i will do so... when im continue my walking i look back to the annoying barrier, and i can see the eyes of sadness and cried, the barrier is me and he give some words to me to learn and learn until im not a liar to myself again and always you'll be my favourite... in the searching of lights that live in the happy world of fantasy.
Friday, September 01, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Komunikasi yang bersepah dan amat tragis
p/s: diary of the serial me... of all our love & hate, gambatte kudasai everybody!!!
benggong benggong jerit sorang sorang
sampai anak tekak berdarah, tapi itu la realiti kehidupan saorang manusia
kalau tak angin manakan pokok bergoyang kan?
jerit dan memekak siang malam pagi suboh tak langsung rasa haus
hmm rasa rasanya ini bukan lagi manusia tapi... entahlah
nak cakap takut laen lak jadi, susah laks tapi camne skali pun kene gak la tahan
suare suare tuh suare yang kenkadang membuatkan aku cuak...
haih arini gua tulis blog gune base pasar mixed2 lagik, gler ar lame xbuwat
ala suare tuh ada lagi la, suare tuh makin kuat lak cesh...
kalu camni kene la gua shut down pc pastu sweet dream ar jawab nyer,
ingat nak layan movie jap citer ocean 11 & 12 tapi tengok ar camner; kalu situasi
da okay layan ar
adakah aku nih saorang outsider kat luar umah mahupun bila kengkawan
aku tengok aku?
tah ler outsider pun outsider la janji aku bleh wat ape yang aku nak kan...
tak gunenyer kalu life nih asyik dok tengok orang jer diri sendiri pon tak tertengok,
so reramai la kite tengok diri sendiri camner, kalu ok tuh oret la but if not,
you probably one of that voices that i heard...
sampai anak tekak berdarah, tapi itu la realiti kehidupan saorang manusia
kalau tak angin manakan pokok bergoyang kan?
jerit dan memekak siang malam pagi suboh tak langsung rasa haus
hmm rasa rasanya ini bukan lagi manusia tapi... entahlah
nak cakap takut laen lak jadi, susah laks tapi camne skali pun kene gak la tahan
suare suare tuh suare yang kenkadang membuatkan aku cuak...
haih arini gua tulis blog gune base pasar mixed2 lagik, gler ar lame xbuwat
ala suare tuh ada lagi la, suare tuh makin kuat lak cesh...
kalu camni kene la gua shut down pc pastu sweet dream ar jawab nyer,
ingat nak layan movie jap citer ocean 11 & 12 tapi tengok ar camner; kalu situasi
da okay layan ar
adakah aku nih saorang outsider kat luar umah mahupun bila kengkawan
aku tengok aku?
tah ler outsider pun outsider la janji aku bleh wat ape yang aku nak kan...
tak gunenyer kalu life nih asyik dok tengok orang jer diri sendiri pon tak tertengok,
so reramai la kite tengok diri sendiri camner, kalu ok tuh oret la but if not,
you probably one of that voices that i heard...
p/s: diary of the serial me... of all our love & hate, gambatte kudasai everybody!!!
Monday, August 28, 2006
Destiny
speak up, stand up
drink up, eat up
everything that i do is only to fulfill my destiny
the destiny that never be the last journey
owh yes i did it, and i done it again
blind and never see it
deaf never ever couldnt hear
im paralyzed to continue my journey to there
no one hear it and no one see it
just me just myself to dream the dream that i wanted
its hell here... need some reflection from a mirror to see me there;
or else im still holding the letter of L
to be understand and wanted to be understanding is quite complicated after all
i do what i do
i speak up, i stand up, i drink up and i eat up... my destiny
speak up, stand up
drink up, eat up
everything that i do is only to fulfill my destiny
the destiny that never be the last journey
owh yes i did it, and i done it again
blind and never see it
deaf never ever couldnt hear
im paralyzed to continue my journey to there
no one hear it and no one see it
just me just myself to dream the dream that i wanted
its hell here... need some reflection from a mirror to see me there;
or else im still holding the letter of L
to be understand and wanted to be understanding is quite complicated after all
i do what i do
i speak up, i stand up, i drink up and i eat up... my destiny
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Sun to be change
im watching the sun change its color
whether it is an ordinary color... but for me it still change
change to be watch, change to be mad and change to be different
whether i know it is a normal sun... but for me its so different
the sun change spinning toward the unpredictable elements
all living things on this earth and the whole galaxy love you, praise you, admired at you, and you so adorable to me... whether you know or not, this words keep telling and running through the center of the skies
watching you to be different is probably a lost of past for me and probably to others too
whether i know you like to be it... and you still change from time to time to evolve
2pm its too hot to stand outside but i will stand to watch you... whether you dont see me
6pm its ok and not too hot but i love to see you fall down and so it goes
dont let my sun change cause i cant live without it and so to other living things
please sun remember me when im not seeing you anymore because of your eager for changes... or whether if you dont want it just let the past be the guardian for others life
sad to let you change happy to watch the old you... and of course the voice of little me wont hear you but i hope you can whether i know that you can and always...
im watching the sun change its color
whether it is an ordinary color... but for me it still change
change to be watch, change to be mad and change to be different
whether i know it is a normal sun... but for me its so different
the sun change spinning toward the unpredictable elements
all living things on this earth and the whole galaxy love you, praise you, admired at you, and you so adorable to me... whether you know or not, this words keep telling and running through the center of the skies
watching you to be different is probably a lost of past for me and probably to others too
whether i know you like to be it... and you still change from time to time to evolve
2pm its too hot to stand outside but i will stand to watch you... whether you dont see me
6pm its ok and not too hot but i love to see you fall down and so it goes
dont let my sun change cause i cant live without it and so to other living things
please sun remember me when im not seeing you anymore because of your eager for changes... or whether if you dont want it just let the past be the guardian for others life
sad to let you change happy to watch the old you... and of course the voice of little me wont hear you but i hope you can whether i know that you can and always...
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Crazy loner insomia
Im now feel so unstable with all the things im doing, yes i know im kinda straight person that doesnt seems to have any sense of voice to have say or to act normal when im been through it... the rhythm of myself is less to hold what i suppose to hold. i lost in the middle of darkness forest that drag me to dead! everybody seems to have a light to lead their way, but now im again with myself struggling alone and fighting with myself to dead until im not alone anymore. yeah, sure the world made me feel that im like not exist or visible to talk or act... people also dont look at me anymore cause im so useless and so outdated far from your future. only when i look through the sky i can see the cloud, the moon, the sun and the stars smiling at me and waving me a goodluck for the rest of my life. for what im here! only flying there when im fall asleep? yeah, i quite mumbling right now and those words keep me writing and writing to reveal the pain inside that no one shouldnt know about it...
And for all that i trust and for all that i believe now comes to the end whether it is already end. owh fuck, crazy to be me and when im feel uncomfortable i'll make some stupid thing that is really fucking hate to do! confius and depress for nothing and theres no healer that i could found it. sha la la la la... that is the sound of happy and freedom person that i know i cant get to it... the longer i stand the more stupid i am to be tired of it... so pretend to be the thing that im not suppose to be! is it? probably it is a way to open up the new me and the new hypocrite was been develop to cover all the tears and all sickness in my heart. shit! stop writing now or i'll punch you through the wall please! im begging you, my hand couldnt stop the feel "he" want to say but my heart cant stand to words the "his" trying to type... stop! stop it! enough torturing me with the grey and cold dull memories! i think i gonna punch it through wall right now!
Im now feel so unstable with all the things im doing, yes i know im kinda straight person that doesnt seems to have any sense of voice to have say or to act normal when im been through it... the rhythm of myself is less to hold what i suppose to hold. i lost in the middle of darkness forest that drag me to dead! everybody seems to have a light to lead their way, but now im again with myself struggling alone and fighting with myself to dead until im not alone anymore. yeah, sure the world made me feel that im like not exist or visible to talk or act... people also dont look at me anymore cause im so useless and so outdated far from your future. only when i look through the sky i can see the cloud, the moon, the sun and the stars smiling at me and waving me a goodluck for the rest of my life. for what im here! only flying there when im fall asleep? yeah, i quite mumbling right now and those words keep me writing and writing to reveal the pain inside that no one shouldnt know about it...
And for all that i trust and for all that i believe now comes to the end whether it is already end. owh fuck, crazy to be me and when im feel uncomfortable i'll make some stupid thing that is really fucking hate to do! confius and depress for nothing and theres no healer that i could found it. sha la la la la... that is the sound of happy and freedom person that i know i cant get to it... the longer i stand the more stupid i am to be tired of it... so pretend to be the thing that im not suppose to be! is it? probably it is a way to open up the new me and the new hypocrite was been develop to cover all the tears and all sickness in my heart. shit! stop writing now or i'll punch you through the wall please! im begging you, my hand couldnt stop the feel "he" want to say but my heart cant stand to words the "his" trying to type... stop! stop it! enough torturing me with the grey and cold dull memories! i think i gonna punch it through wall right now!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Fantasy
All my life I had built up a fantasy
of the perfect girl.
Countless romance stories and fables
helped make that fantasy a reality in my mind.
Searching for that fantasy lead to many
disappointments.
Reality made it clear that there was no such girl.
And as the years went by, the fantasy started
to fade away - until I met you.
I had almost given up on the fantasy until
my fantasy became reality,
that reality became you.
All my life I had built up a fantasy
of the perfect girl.
Countless romance stories and fables
helped make that fantasy a reality in my mind.
Searching for that fantasy lead to many
disappointments.
Reality made it clear that there was no such girl.
And as the years went by, the fantasy started
to fade away - until I met you.
I had almost given up on the fantasy until
my fantasy became reality,
that reality became you.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Inside out
Hungry and so tired today a lot of things pop up out of my head, a lot of it... 'bout me, 'bout them and 'bout you. But im glad the web site project is settled and case is closed i hope la... but for me it is okay now. And now comes the new project to be done huarrgghhh... but im happy no more web fussing arround in my head, as i woke up every morning i didnt realize that i almost intern there for 2 month already yesss... can wait to go back to school... and grab back my life, such as overslept and skip class, hangging with my mate at 'terminal' hahaha some old memories. i miss all that stuff! And the most important thing in my life i will free from any kind of idea that holds me and turn me to be such an idiot person. Happy to be myself alone and all the misery to be kept inside here alone.
p/s: tomorrow 16/8/06 tahlil arwah at mmu surau after finish maghrib prayer...
Hungry and so tired today a lot of things pop up out of my head, a lot of it... 'bout me, 'bout them and 'bout you. But im glad the web site project is settled and case is closed i hope la... but for me it is okay now. And now comes the new project to be done huarrgghhh... but im happy no more web fussing arround in my head, as i woke up every morning i didnt realize that i almost intern there for 2 month already yesss... can wait to go back to school... and grab back my life, such as overslept and skip class, hangging with my mate at 'terminal' hahaha some old memories. i miss all that stuff! And the most important thing in my life i will free from any kind of idea that holds me and turn me to be such an idiot person. Happy to be myself alone and all the misery to be kept inside here alone.
p/s: tomorrow 16/8/06 tahlil arwah at mmu surau after finish maghrib prayer...
Monday, August 14, 2006
Cold
Im just sitting in my car and
Waiting for my girl to drift away my life
But then she wasnt show up?!
Why? probably im so idiot to understand
The thing that i suppose not to undesstand
Yes, i know im just running away because
I know im a jerk to you
I know you so special for me
But im not so special at all
Im nothing and always condemn myself to look you
For almost 2 years or maybe 3 years i couldnt see what i want to see
Oh shit! i forgot, i always dreaming about you and you only
Appear in my dream... why not in reality too?!
This is cold enough for me to live my life
Im just sitting in my car and
Waiting for my girl to drift away my life
But then she wasnt show up?!
Why? probably im so idiot to understand
The thing that i suppose not to undesstand
Yes, i know im just running away because
I know im a jerk to you
I know you so special for me
But im not so special at all
Im nothing and always condemn myself to look you
For almost 2 years or maybe 3 years i couldnt see what i want to see
Oh shit! i forgot, i always dreaming about you and you only
Appear in my dream... why not in reality too?!
This is cold enough for me to live my life
Saturday, August 12, 2006
My Blue Heaven
Still the one i am who pretend to be normal people
But still i am a trash and so i am a place to be hurting
Do i deserve this for all this years ive been through
I couldnt place myself on top of everything so im still below everything
People doesnt trust my honesty and also my pride
People just take it and leave it for their own good
Im homeless and no damn room for me to share
What did I do to deserve?
Looking at me everytimes i wokeup in my sleep
I feel like someone is blaming me for everything that i did
Sure im not innocence sure im the cause of everything
cause everything is evil when people look at me
A first hope become a last hope cause i know i will shot it till im gone
Bye bye to myself that always never be apart with it
Goodbye to emotional that hurting me everytimes i recall it
It bleed inside and never get better whenever in comes
Loser and a jerk will always be on my side to touch me
And drag me into it... And i know you know whether it is blind for you
But for me it is a clear view, this is my blue heaven that i dreamt
Yes, this is a blue heaven
Still the one i am who pretend to be normal people
But still i am a trash and so i am a place to be hurting
Do i deserve this for all this years ive been through
I couldnt place myself on top of everything so im still below everything
People doesnt trust my honesty and also my pride
People just take it and leave it for their own good
Im homeless and no damn room for me to share
What did I do to deserve?
Looking at me everytimes i wokeup in my sleep
I feel like someone is blaming me for everything that i did
Sure im not innocence sure im the cause of everything
cause everything is evil when people look at me
A first hope become a last hope cause i know i will shot it till im gone
Bye bye to myself that always never be apart with it
Goodbye to emotional that hurting me everytimes i recall it
It bleed inside and never get better whenever in comes
Loser and a jerk will always be on my side to touch me
And drag me into it... And i know you know whether it is blind for you
But for me it is a clear view, this is my blue heaven that i dreamt
Yes, this is a blue heaven
Friday, August 11, 2006
Remember you
I'll remember you
And the things that we used to do
And the things that we used to say
I'll remember you
Always
I still miss you
God I still miss you
I know that you are waiting there
I always thought that you'd come home
If it dont hurt you it wont hurt me
If it dont hurt me it wont hurt you
If it dont hurt you it wont hurt me that way
I'll remember you
Always
I'll remember you
And the things that we used to do
And the things that we used to say
I'll remember you
Always
I still miss you
God I still miss you
I know that you are waiting there
I always thought that you'd come home
If it dont hurt you it wont hurt me
If it dont hurt me it wont hurt you
If it dont hurt you it wont hurt me that way
I'll remember you
Always
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Night fever
Argghh... at last im feel better again, better than you know and better than myself know. i hope it will last long nahh it cant be... i feel boring ar, nak kate xtgk tv da tgk nak kate tak main ngan kucen da main da so what the boring thing that always keep pop up in my head? erhhmm entahler, so tomorrow like the same days, go for working and i hope that tomorrow new project will be given laa if not jadi statue laa tgk website jer, haih! and i cant wait for my new "4 tyres" not new laa but 2nd hand kehkehkeh, my green is finish and i also gonna eat sand la... but i will keep my eyes and also extra care for my new "4 tyres" not new la 2nd hand hekhekhek!!
So, my old "4 tyres"one, i still searching for the buyers to take her home cause i dont have green to support her everytimes she have a problems... im very thankful for her help in the past that always help me and my comrades to go somewhere, without her i cant move anywhere! its been almost 2 months being intern at "gitv" i think... so i like the place but somehow the place doesnt makes my idea grow bigger and bigger cause we're an undergrounders...huhuhu... anyway i hope i can work there if my study finish cause now its hard to find a job in this creative matters... man it hard and hard!! and ofcourse if i got better place im sure i will bond myself there! well thats all in the future but now is now, its still coming and coming and let the painter paint the picture... sambel menulis blog nih my ears listening to "Non Stop Hit Initial D" man... da lame xdengar lagu2 dance techno nih then plus the aura to race... racing to writing all in my head... so to all people out there take care of yourself and you all should know that outside is dangerous hekhekhek ok sayonara people *yawn*
Argghh... at last im feel better again, better than you know and better than myself know. i hope it will last long nahh it cant be... i feel boring ar, nak kate xtgk tv da tgk nak kate tak main ngan kucen da main da so what the boring thing that always keep pop up in my head? erhhmm entahler, so tomorrow like the same days, go for working and i hope that tomorrow new project will be given laa if not jadi statue laa tgk website jer, haih! and i cant wait for my new "4 tyres" not new laa but 2nd hand kehkehkeh, my green is finish and i also gonna eat sand la... but i will keep my eyes and also extra care for my new "4 tyres" not new la 2nd hand hekhekhek!!
So, my old "4 tyres"one, i still searching for the buyers to take her home cause i dont have green to support her everytimes she have a problems... im very thankful for her help in the past that always help me and my comrades to go somewhere, without her i cant move anywhere! its been almost 2 months being intern at "gitv" i think... so i like the place but somehow the place doesnt makes my idea grow bigger and bigger cause we're an undergrounders...huhuhu... anyway i hope i can work there if my study finish cause now its hard to find a job in this creative matters... man it hard and hard!! and ofcourse if i got better place im sure i will bond myself there! well thats all in the future but now is now, its still coming and coming and let the painter paint the picture... sambel menulis blog nih my ears listening to "Non Stop Hit Initial D" man... da lame xdengar lagu2 dance techno nih then plus the aura to race... racing to writing all in my head... so to all people out there take care of yourself and you all should know that outside is dangerous hekhekhek ok sayonara people *yawn*
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Stop
please stop the war, i cant stand to hear more women and child been murdered,
please stop the war, in the name of humanity,
please stop it let us build the world of peace without any red blood messing all around the ground...
please god, i cried when i heard the people killed in the war... give us a hope to make this world live in hormony and peaceful, please god...
please stop the war, i cant stand to hear more women and child been murdered,
please stop the war, in the name of humanity,
please stop it let us build the world of peace without any red blood messing all around the ground...
please god, i cried when i heard the people killed in the war... give us a hope to make this world live in hormony and peaceful, please god...
A state of confusion
Running outside with empty sympathy
Walking inside with dirty reality
Crawl slowly towards the door
Then i saw a black hole on the door
Im sure with what my eyes speak
And im sure it is, im aint a geek
Now, and forever i would not open it
Past, and even i re-born, i wouldnt take it
To see what is kept inside and outside
I will be a person from the downside
Down under and never climbing up back
But if i climb, i probably slip then i just sit back and relax
I know im still not been wake from the noise
Sometimes the sound of it are noise but still im in my maze
I run, i walk, i crawl and i climb with no purpose
I suppose i couldnt understand the universe purpose
Why should i care about universe? cause the universe is my path
The path that exist before im born, im blurred with this path
Thats why i couldnt run faster than you, walking grace like you
crawling smooth like you and have a nice step climbing like you
This is my mayhem in the middle of my heart and my brain
Mayhem is everywhere arround me...
Running outside with empty sympathy
Walking inside with dirty reality
Crawl slowly towards the door
Then i saw a black hole on the door
Im sure with what my eyes speak
And im sure it is, im aint a geek
Now, and forever i would not open it
Past, and even i re-born, i wouldnt take it
To see what is kept inside and outside
I will be a person from the downside
Down under and never climbing up back
But if i climb, i probably slip then i just sit back and relax
I know im still not been wake from the noise
Sometimes the sound of it are noise but still im in my maze
I run, i walk, i crawl and i climb with no purpose
I suppose i couldnt understand the universe purpose
Why should i care about universe? cause the universe is my path
The path that exist before im born, im blurred with this path
Thats why i couldnt run faster than you, walking grace like you
crawling smooth like you and have a nice step climbing like you
This is my mayhem in the middle of my heart and my brain
Mayhem is everywhere arround me...
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Rocket attacks on civilians
Lobbing rockets blindly into civilian areas is without doubt a war crime, Nothing can justify this assault on the most fundamental standards for sparing civilians the hazards of war. They hit the hospital, at Nahariya Hospital, rockets had been landing near the hospital since July 12. There are no military bases around here, nothing military at all..why? why should they hit it, sick and dying people there... they doesnt have a people minds but they got a minds of a monster that want to destroy all of it.
Rockets have hit homes in many northern towns, Malka Karasanti, 70, was injured when a rocket destroyed the top two floors of her three-story apartment building in Haifa on July 17, and she said,
"I was taking a nap in my apartment on the second floor when, around 2:30 p.m., I heard a siren go off. I went to the bathroom, which I use as my safe room since there is no shelter in the building. There was a loud boom, and then everything began to collapse around me. … I was injured in my right shoulder bone, I broke a left rib, and I have a tear in my eardrum so I don’t hear well now".
They hit hospitals, homes, businesses, shelters and of course peoples. There is nothing but power and egoism. Just let the innocent people go and dont attack them. And I hope that world can be peace once again cause if we living in the world of death shower we all can not taste the ultimate peace that we already got it, now. Why must we kill our own child cause we all the same we are people! So, I pray to god and we all must no matter what you are, may world can taste the sweet of peaceful world while we can...
Lobbing rockets blindly into civilian areas is without doubt a war crime, Nothing can justify this assault on the most fundamental standards for sparing civilians the hazards of war. They hit the hospital, at Nahariya Hospital, rockets had been landing near the hospital since July 12. There are no military bases around here, nothing military at all..why? why should they hit it, sick and dying people there... they doesnt have a people minds but they got a minds of a monster that want to destroy all of it.
Rockets have hit homes in many northern towns, Malka Karasanti, 70, was injured when a rocket destroyed the top two floors of her three-story apartment building in Haifa on July 17, and she said,
"I was taking a nap in my apartment on the second floor when, around 2:30 p.m., I heard a siren go off. I went to the bathroom, which I use as my safe room since there is no shelter in the building. There was a loud boom, and then everything began to collapse around me. … I was injured in my right shoulder bone, I broke a left rib, and I have a tear in my eardrum so I don’t hear well now".
They hit hospitals, homes, businesses, shelters and of course peoples. There is nothing but power and egoism. Just let the innocent people go and dont attack them. And I hope that world can be peace once again cause if we living in the world of death shower we all can not taste the ultimate peace that we already got it, now. Why must we kill our own child cause we all the same we are people! So, I pray to god and we all must no matter what you are, may world can taste the sweet of peaceful world while we can...
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Dream
dream to be them
it might bring disaster to me
dream to be a sky
i probably fun in day time but dull in night time
dream to be a bird
it still the same what i am right now
dream to be water
its kind a cool, peace and sometimes rage emotion
dream to be is what people do
until a bit of it got to be tasted...or probably not
dream is fun and dream is torturing
when it comes to people that you admired
dream...dream just gives a hope not a solid prize to get
dream sometimes opened my eyes about you
what the dream do is only a hope for a fantasy
that we like it to be into reality or not!
crying in the dream probably trap forever and shouldnt
able to wake up anymore... and it goes by dream
dream to be them
it might bring disaster to me
dream to be a sky
i probably fun in day time but dull in night time
dream to be a bird
it still the same what i am right now
dream to be water
its kind a cool, peace and sometimes rage emotion
dream to be is what people do
until a bit of it got to be tasted...or probably not
dream is fun and dream is torturing
when it comes to people that you admired
dream...dream just gives a hope not a solid prize to get
dream sometimes opened my eyes about you
what the dream do is only a hope for a fantasy
that we like it to be into reality or not!
crying in the dream probably trap forever and shouldnt
able to wake up anymore... and it goes by dream
Thursday, August 03, 2006
War within a breath
Every official that comes in
Cripples us leaves us maimed
Silent and tamed
And with our flesh and bones
He builds his homes
Southern fist
Rise through tha jungle mist
Clenched to smash power so cancerous
A black flag and a red star
A rising sun loomin' over Los Angeles
Cause for Raza livin in La La
Is like Gaza on to tha dawn of Intifada
Reach for tha lessons tha masked pass on
And seize the metropolis
It's you that it's built on
Everything can change on a new years day
War within a breath
It's land or death
It's land!
Their existence is a crime
Their seat their robe their tie
Their land deeds
Their hired guns
They're tha crime
Shots heard underground round the rapture
The world's eye captured
At last in a Mexican pasture
The masked screaming land or death
Within a breath
A war from tha depth of time
Who shot four puppet governors in a line
Who shook all the world bankers
Who think they can rhyme
Shot the landlords who knew it was mine
Yes, it's a war from the depth of time
Everything can change on a new years day
It's war within a breath
It's land or death
p/s: wake up and fight against our enemy that kills our brother, sister and our family... we are freedom fighter! *a words by Zack de la Rocha
Every official that comes in
Cripples us leaves us maimed
Silent and tamed
And with our flesh and bones
He builds his homes
Southern fist
Rise through tha jungle mist
Clenched to smash power so cancerous
A black flag and a red star
A rising sun loomin' over Los Angeles
Cause for Raza livin in La La
Is like Gaza on to tha dawn of Intifada
Reach for tha lessons tha masked pass on
And seize the metropolis
It's you that it's built on
Everything can change on a new years day
War within a breath
It's land or death
It's land!
Their existence is a crime
Their seat their robe their tie
Their land deeds
Their hired guns
They're tha crime
Shots heard underground round the rapture
The world's eye captured
At last in a Mexican pasture
The masked screaming land or death
Within a breath
A war from tha depth of time
Who shot four puppet governors in a line
Who shook all the world bankers
Who think they can rhyme
Shot the landlords who knew it was mine
Yes, it's a war from the depth of time
Everything can change on a new years day
It's war within a breath
It's land or death
p/s: wake up and fight against our enemy that kills our brother, sister and our family... we are freedom fighter! *a words by Zack de la Rocha
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
(Before go to work *morning*)
Shit again my cars central lock make the most shitiest problem ever...I cant open my door, this is not the 1st time it happen... i dont have time to repair it whether on the weekend shit. I wanna go early to the office to make my damn works done... why, why do you make me like this huh?! @#$%*&^ car door and lock, now im waiting for my brother to use his car... wait n see until im own my 86 with good condition.
(After working & get home*nite*)
Okay its fine i come to the office at 10 something a.m. now when i get home i heard an interesting news, again with or connected with my car! Again? no..no..no.. my father said that my car at the workshop because of the malfunction pistons that caused by *xde minyak hitam* its empty already... shit...shit one problem to other newest problem... the car door my father said it have been repaired and cause me about RM 80 OMG!! shit again! okay. now the biggest event ever that i got to sacrifice my damn green to my car maybe arround RM 300 something? or maybe 500 ermm i think more than that kot! SHIT!!! no money la for me to save for this month haiyaaa! last month i have repaired the drive shaft so now this month 2 things... door and the pistons OMG how i wanna get those green... my father said "nevermind la use my money" but i dont want to susahkan dier cause i know how hard to find money... yeap that car really pissed me off in the beginning... seb baek ko keter... and da byk berjase kat aku. i know you old already but sometimes i cannot handle myself with a lots of problem coming through my head... i got many problems then you added more haih!! things happen and things goes thats what i mean about the life recycle.
(Tomorrow)
I dont know how to get my @#! there (menara KL) my brother use his car, my mum also perhaps i will my old school friend which is Rusa my fathers van. but i hope my car will be okay by this morning maybe arround 10 am or 12pm. and for sure i will come late to office tommorow or maybe not. depend! past and future always got the bad and good stuff for us to learn and appreciate on it.
p/s: my eyes got red very red cause im looking to the computer screen for too long and its ithcy haih what can i do everyday pc.. working using pc and look at it up until 10 or 8 hours a days! hope it will get well soon..
Shit again my cars central lock make the most shitiest problem ever...I cant open my door, this is not the 1st time it happen... i dont have time to repair it whether on the weekend shit. I wanna go early to the office to make my damn works done... why, why do you make me like this huh?! @#$%*&^ car door and lock, now im waiting for my brother to use his car... wait n see until im own my 86 with good condition.
(After working & get home*nite*)
Okay its fine i come to the office at 10 something a.m. now when i get home i heard an interesting news, again with or connected with my car! Again? no..no..no.. my father said that my car at the workshop because of the malfunction pistons that caused by *xde minyak hitam* its empty already... shit...shit one problem to other newest problem... the car door my father said it have been repaired and cause me about RM 80 OMG!! shit again! okay. now the biggest event ever that i got to sacrifice my damn green to my car maybe arround RM 300 something? or maybe 500 ermm i think more than that kot! SHIT!!! no money la for me to save for this month haiyaaa! last month i have repaired the drive shaft so now this month 2 things... door and the pistons OMG how i wanna get those green... my father said "nevermind la use my money" but i dont want to susahkan dier cause i know how hard to find money... yeap that car really pissed me off in the beginning... seb baek ko keter... and da byk berjase kat aku. i know you old already but sometimes i cannot handle myself with a lots of problem coming through my head... i got many problems then you added more haih!! things happen and things goes thats what i mean about the life recycle.
(Tomorrow)
I dont know how to get my @#! there (menara KL) my brother use his car, my mum also perhaps i will my old school friend which is Rusa my fathers van. but i hope my car will be okay by this morning maybe arround 10 am or 12pm. and for sure i will come late to office tommorow or maybe not. depend! past and future always got the bad and good stuff for us to learn and appreciate on it.
p/s: my eyes got red very red cause im looking to the computer screen for too long and its ithcy haih what can i do everyday pc.. working using pc and look at it up until 10 or 8 hours a days! hope it will get well soon..
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