Ignore me

hello! hello! hello there!
can anybody see me?
can anybody hear me?
or touch me?
where am i? some kind of fantasy space out here?
yuhuuu! am i exist? or shall i say,
im a tiny little dust flying around,

nothing can make u see, hear or touch me,
cause im useless!

Red and black till u lost your voice



My voice is gone, bcoz yesterday i had a great time cheering my team not "my team shebby ok" its red devil!! wah its so unpredictable when my voice gone like this, i gonna recover it before this 18th... or not, i will able to throw my voice to sing a song for "Gema". Anyway, today i have a jamming session i think today i will not standing near to the microphone laaa, coz gile nk nyayi...so today arab je laa yang melalak!! the main point is, its been a long time i didnt lost my voice but yesterday match so...so...so great! red devil forever... cayalah Ronaldo and the rest of mate!!

Love is...

Love is to stare
Love is to admire
Love is to care
Love is to desire
Love is to want
Love is to need
Love is divine.

Alone

Alone I drift away,
Alone I walk a thousand miles,
Alone I fall asleep,
Alone I stare at the sky,
Alone I sit under a tree,
Alone I cry.

Alone I dream of you,
Alone I hope and pray,
to God who is so merciful and powerful
to let me find my way.

Alone I drift away,
Alone I live today,
and alone I'll die someday.

p/s: I'm so alone...

Kerana dia adalah kamu

aku terpegun melihat dirimu tersenyum,
ia bagaikan menganjak diriku kembali kesitu,
namun, aku ingin menyatakannya
adakah aku adalah aku,
atau mungkin aku adalah bayangan tidurku?

selalu aku menyedari hidupku dengan memori
yang tidak pernah sama sekali luput dalam ingatan ini,
aku juga selalu didatangi dengan dejavu yang sama sekali
aku tidak pasti adakah ia benar, adakah itu pasti?
pasti untukku?!

aku terpegun bila kau ungkapkan kata-kata dari bibirmu,
ia bagaikan membawaku ke satu tempat mendengar kehebatan kicauan burung,
taktala kegembiraan menyelebungi kehadiranku,
namun, aku ingin menyatakannya
adakah dirimu benar-benar bersamaku,
atau aku sengaja menolak diriku untuk jatuh keseorangan,
didalam lubuk yang tidak akan pasti aku naik kembali

benarkah aku masih ada ruang untukmu?
atau aku hanya bermain dengan bayanganmu saja...

1st Round T.K.O

Finally the 1st round of FYP submission da anto!! lega tuh lega laa but somehow i dont feel so good about it... hah! now we moving towards the 2nd round of "boxing competition" this one got to be really hard to imagine in terms of mental and psychology illness, man! it should be done! hope i can grad on time, and i wish all of them a very goodluck... kepala pon da mantong this week i got to rush back home to settle a thing plus i've got no money because all of used for "war" haha nice terms!

p/s: nothing going well here especially my life... hate myself!!

Tired eyes with crucial strength to seek

all this weeks makes me busy all day long, but somehow i've got a little time for playing cards, dota and of course mamak laa... weeks of worlds hell dominating my atmosphere, fyp...fyp that is the word of tension, repetition working, mental illness, haha and many more symptoms that we all can see for this in coming deadline of the project... now, im blogging myself to release some stress that kept inside, whether i know i can see 'tuah' hahaha. my progression of my works is now down in too a lil bit of relaxing sket laaa... but for sure i got many stuff to settle it down!! so,thats all i think!! cant wait to sleep in peaceful and harmony moment...

p/s: good luck for your submission and hope you enjoy busying urself for the FYP!!

An audition becomes our Albarb's dream to...

Oh thank god Alhamdullilah our audition for GEMA 07 at MMU finally pass by giving us hope to perform at grand hall...(mak aih besonyer) so, our audition on last saturday is not reallt good la but we manage to perform well and to cover-up our mistake during the audition...mostly the technical part, when my guitar doesnt want to make a sound... it is all because the cable, (haih cable tuh kasik gue cuak gler)so anyway, whether my guitar skill is not perform well as i practice my back-up vocal is very..very helping me to cover the emptiness of the guitar sound... arab, hatim, mus and shuk perform well and the think that i remember that shuk is so feel of 'hukum karma' song until he over running the chord thats sound so pelik and when i stare at him automatically he mengelabah cari chord balik hahaha!! mus, played 'hukum karma' in so fast tempo whether in the pratice session he cant do the fast tempo and we all agree we play in a moderate tempo so, in audition he played in a fast tempo that surely he can beat Lars Ulrich hahaha gempak tuh... hatem, wahh he's so stim pale coz he got my fx that can make a cry baby sound and he's a great guitarist...arab, the man with humble image when it comes to praising him abut his vocal, he denied about our perception toward his vocal..but i think arab vocal is good but not good laaa to beat Abuar Zain kehkehkeh!!

and now we all struggling for our FYP but the show is in around the corner... wahh such a great moment to have and to enjoy while we can... the show is in 1st April if im not been mistaken... so, win or lose it doesnt matter now, cause the competitors also have a lots of potential to win, if we win waaaahhh it is a greatest memories laaa while we studying in MMU..

p/s: thanks for supporting me and the band and hope you will enjoy the song for finale 'sentuhan listrikmu' hehe.. and the song is dedicated to you hehehe ;) (ble tak?)

Could I Ever Leave You?


Could I ever leave you? Never. For
you are the air the fills me with the
breath of life and the energy that fuels
each day.

You are my laughter, my joy,
my reason for being. You are my hope,
my warmth on a cold winters night, and
the flowers that bloom in my heart.

You are my friend, my love...my life.
You are the liquid of life under a deserts
sun; my port in a storm and without you
there is but a barren wasteland of
nothingness, where laughter has died
and darkness and bitter howling winds
are forever.

Could I ever leave you. Not for all
eternity and one day thereafter, if
there be such a time.

Thinking of You

I think of you every night and day
In all I do and all I say
I think of you when I’m on the air
For your music I so like to share

The beat of your music speaks to me
It shows up in my rhymes as you can see
Not all but some have just the right beat
Read them all just take a seat

You inspire me in every way
Too keep on working at it every day
Sooner or later I’ll reach my dreams
And I have you to thank, so it seems

So thank you my friend for all your support
You are my stormy port
I look to you for my inspirations
For all of my creations

Everything that i want is you

im sorry because of my moves
im sorry because of my bad images
im sorry because of my reaction
im sorry to make you feel down like this
im sorry to make your heart break
i know that im so idiot to myself
i know that im so dumb to you
once again im sorry to make you tears going down on your cheeks
please forgive me... i begging this to you...
we'll start this all over again... without making you sad or cry...

p/s: mintak ampun yaaa! ;)

Alive Or Just Breathing?

sudah lama aku meninggalkan blog aku nih.. tanpa dibaca, tanpa diusik, tanpa dihayati. aku sendiri pun tak pasti, tapi apa yang boleh aku katakan ialah aku kembali kerana perkataan adalah kehidupan yang pasti! bebaru ni aku ada a lots of problem yang aku rasa sedih, putus asa, and many more negative impact on it... aku kesian kat family walaupun pada kawan2 aku mereka nampak aku ok, but aku try nak hide hanya kat blog ni je aku try tulis apa yang boleh aku rasakan... tekanan demi tekanan aku kene and ofcourse my famiy too.

aku harap Allah akan memberi kekuatan kepada kami semua utk carry on our life ni... dan menginsafkan mereka2 yang tidak tahu bertaubat demi memuaskan nafsu hasad dengki mereka terhadap kami.. aku sendiri pun binggung kat atas dunia ni macam2 hal yang diluar pemikiran manusia mampu dilakukan.. takper aku redha dan aku tawakal kepadaMu.. hanya dengan menulis perkataan aku ni kat blog akan meredakan sedikit masalah yg aku simpan selama ini yg aku rasa berat untuk dikatakan...

p/s: think the way it should...

S.F.A.W I hope...

last.. miss.. love.. memories.. life database(huh?)... the joy...

p/s: the promise of "S.F.A.W"

Hungry little love

why? why me? why not some other guys?
why? why should you up for it? why?
why me? *sigh* hell why?

A chat with depression

Look here.
Do you know who the hell I am?
I am no friend and am no lamb.
I am here to destroy you.
I am no friend.
I am the enemy.
Im the devil in disguise.

Im The devil in the darkness.
Im the warrior that destroys.

I am depression.
You will never be free.
I will be with you for ever.

So now do you know who I am?
I am deppression
Worse than the devil
I am the devil in disguise
So now be wise

p/s: i'm talking with it! and i'm seriously shocked now!

Alone in my own world

I sit here alone,
in this dark place.
My mind has gone crazy,
my heart's in a race.
I sit here alone,
with my thoughts gone mad.
I feel I'm insane,
my life's turned bad.
I sit here alone,
as people pass by.
I scream to be heard,
but can't and cry.
I sit here alone,
I'm all messed up.
I have no control,
It's time to give up.
I sit here alone,
I can't hold on.
I'm losing my grasp,
My sanity's gone.
I sit here alone,
My freedom is here,
The struggle is over,
I won't shed a tear.
I sit here alone,
I shall never see light.
I have only darkness,
In my own world tonight.

The life cycle of my emotions

Love leads to pain
Pain leads to hatred
Hatred leads to sorrow
Sorrow leads to despair
Despair leads to pleasure
Pleasure leads to happiness
Happiness leads to love
Love leads to pain

p/s: that is all about it, to feel what it shouldnt be feel.. is it okay? i hope so...

Plenty of anger

There is plenty of anger inside of me
It has to stop
Why is there so much anger inside of me?
My anger is part of my frustration
I have to control it now
My anger causes me plenty of trouble
There is plenty of anger inside of me
And what is anger do I know?
Anger is a strong feeling of displasure
It is a grief that I have inside of me
How can I control it?
What triggers my anger?
Can I recognize it?

Finished and Something to do

at last i finished my presentation today.. it was great to feel that im free now, just for now okayy! gotta practice my guitar cause today i got jamm session haih release all the pain and the suffering that i been through!

p/s: heart broken is just a simple kinda of pain that i always been through! knowing someone that i suppose to make me crazy and down all day long! so got to do sumthing better now... cheers guys :D

All sucked-up

empty already my ideas to write down the situation analysis + executive summary = web based! Gotta continue it tonite, or else im dead! wahh! i hope guys also do what you suppose to do erk! gotta motivated myself to finish up this task before thursday... please god give me some strength to face all that happen to me lately...