emo in the morning

am i such a fool?
or maybe im such an idiot?
downing myself with the words that make me such a broken heart people
why? should i live in the world of loser?
can i be like those people that always in free and been loved?
i like this! whether deep inside i know, i much more than this
10,11,12 whatever it that im always be like im used to be
such ashame! such a loser, what should it takes to be something to be mine
the quiet things that no one ever know except me and god

p/s:such a crap post i posted today right? nevermind i write what i feel about it :(