alone while thinking bout you

in the darkest and silence place where im online is truly full of story when im here alone, stealing the coverage that im really thankful for his signal to keeps me connected in the digital form...here i am.. sitting with no chair just a light of my bathroom lights the darknest while im writting... you probably now happy with your agenda with your comrades and your sisters... im happy you make it, it done and successful event there... the sound of the tapping water drip flow my head, beside the sound of my music that keeps playing from 3.30 pm "co&ca"... im here alone with my writting down here faster beating my heart beat, write the feeling that i had today..

the stupid nightmare that i told you keeps repeating in my mind whether i know its a fake scenery and a fake us. i just keep asking to myself, why the devils hate us? and ofcourse the answer is because we are sons of adam thats why they always seek the chances to make us split into 2..in the nightmatre! sick of it! just now my neighbour K ask me to go out with him but until now he's disappear with any note left behind..m.i.a... i dont know whether you guys are reading my blog.. post by post... i hope my words gives you something that i dont really know what it is..

im shocked just now! my housemate bump his head onto the door to open the tight door haha... im just feel alone right now i wish i can join you guys to your party but i know its for girls only... man! i feel nothing to do to night normally i land myself to you to watch your beautiful hazel eyes.. im so admired your eyes..

now its 26th of july... cant wait to attend your sister's wedding and im driving back home.. i got something to looking for. its for my apparel 'things' the button and the 'kain pelikat' haha dont know what english word is.. its a gold baju melayu same like you, its cool enough we dressing in a same color! yeah! so till we meet again my digital journal i think i should do something right now..

and the important things is i miss your smile dear! and i love you! please hug me... please... sayang kamu!! take care!

weirdo off day

woke up like usually
but today was my off day
off day on a week days
its like weird and kinda bored actually
but its good also for those who wanna go for shopping
it a great time coz u wont bother with crowdy people passing by
and easy to step infront of the mall without any honking, shouting like a normal day for shopping that is weekend

so i drive my car to send my hyper and crazy housemate to kl sentral
wow! so fast i get there without any traffic jam and of course there's a small incident of traffic jam.. which is people who drive waiting for an ant to cross the road... i said " Ni la dia malaysia.. kalu ada xcident kat sebelah sume layan nak tgk, nak tgk xkisah pi laa park kat mana2 bayaq kat parking man tu rm 3.50 per hour then pi la tgk.. tp jgn tgk je tolong laa skali ker.." its like we from behind questioning what happen infront of us.. i said again " tunggu semut melintas bersama sama anak2 nya.. prihatin gak rakyat malaysia nih kan?" haha... then after that, i stop him at the suppose place he wanted to stop.. my eyki watch show me that now is 3pm something..ermm what shud i do yaa..my mind speed up to plan the last minute agenda.. but the road is getting busy and busy... suddenly i just passing by the place we also go.. when i pass the place my head its like a t.v or shall i said a dvd muvie that rewind all those memories we had back then.. such as at the bus stand near bukit bintang where.. i accidently broke my ring + we be like homeless people laughing out loud there.. it was fun to be with you... ;-) then i pass by the pertama complex foodcourt where we break our fast there..actually xmakan pon just minum air then bukak kat nasik ayam bukit bintang tuh yeahh!! its a golden moment for me actully.. there's a lot more place i passing by but this is the recall one that i can share.
then after a boring and memorable drive at kl i straight away heading back home, but i feel thristy.. i said to myself.."baik lepak jap craven or "caravan" ada la org tuh ckp)minum2 kat sana.. after i land my butt at the wooden chair i ordered my beverage... then i saw this guy beside my table, from the beginning of my walking to my table he's looking at me.. do i know him? ermm..nahhh!! not kot.. maybe he thinks im the one of "ahli fikir" member..haha..
then, i take it look while im think who was him.. i said man!! he's a front man of pretty ugly band.. he sat there by himself with a glass of tea and an empty page book.. wahh! i said! he probably wanna wrote his new song here.. with all the kerut2 on his dahi, writting the word that i didnt know what it is.. of course i dont know.. nak tau tunggu album kuaq laa, tu yang aku bajet die akan cakap kalu aku tegur die hahaaha... i sit there for almost an hour and a half watching him seriuosly writting.. i wish i brought my book too.. in that range of time i create my words to her because maybe i cannot stand to see someone writting beside me, im turn to be a type writer that automatically want to write a letters to create a words..

my word that i gave her sound like this...


love its just a word to say bout the feeling toward someone or something,
love its just a feeling that we know we are exist in this world,
love its just a present that ensure us not to be alone,
love its just a situation that create harmony surrounding,
love its just bout how we express our touching heart toward someone,

love is to appreciate, trust, honest, learn, care...
love for me is to love you more until im gone...

its just a word from my heart to you...


wahh its so dramatically for me to write it, it just comes naturally inside wheteher the grammar sound horrible.. but im trying to write it down... now im online at my kitchen using wireless coverage that escape from the people who use it.. and i as malaysian citizen fully utilize the thing to write my word inside here... man! it feels good when im write..

p/s: i love you dear!!

the simple effect counting

1..2..3..
never wanted to see you been hurt again
1..2..3..
i dont want you to feel down again
1..2..3..
why should the re-existing makes me so protective
1..2..3..
again i will never let someone hurt you agin
i mean no one!! no one will hurt your feeling cause im your bodyguard
1..2..3..
still counting until it stop.. and stop hurt you and make you down
1..2..3..
this is a counting for me to detonate my explosive, to whom it suppose to be
1..2..3..
i will take care of you from the nasty little crap
1..2..3..
it will explode if someone pull the trigger

and of course
1..2..3..

my love explode like a bomb of hapiness inside
1..2..3..
I love you dear!!

im been mosaic my life by my own

nothing much... almost 1 whole day i didnt eat.. from bfast, lunch, and maybe dinner and of course supper.. my story i edited about this guy kene 'reman' imigresen has been released.. and the most important thing is i mosaic his face.. yeay!! cool yo! perhaps i couldnt see her tonite hopefully tomorrow we have a time to see each other.. i feel so alone right now, my housemate gone to johor and also goes to my neighbour m.i.a.. im missed her already, hope she will feel the same like me.. life goes on no matter what i try to alter it and it still move on and on. and its good! but when it comes a time when i didnt see her, i felt so alone and so empty... i ate alone, i sang alone, and of course i talk alone...

GOD! am i really missed her? YEAH! I AM!! hope to see you.. but if not in reality please appear urself in my dreams... i love you dear.. i mosaic myself in this very little world.. and i learn how hard it be for me to feel missing the one i love... but im not mosaic myself in terms of my life.. and it just for awhile... dear!! i hope ur heart will listen what im trying to say and i feel right now... and i hope u are dear!!

after my shift is over i will get some food.. im so damn hungry.. its like im a somalian people.. huh?! anyway dear.. hope u r reading this!! i LOVE YOU and i MISS YOU dear!!

p/s: I love You...

Life

Life is like a song
When we are happy
the life sings a happy song

When we are sad
the life sings a sad song

Life is like a song

It just tune to the
music which you turn on

Life is like a song

It shows all the
High notes and low notes
in your way

Life is like a song

Even after having
a hectic life like a rock song

It only and always
gives a peace of mind

Because the words
of the song are
of your own

Life is like a song

p/s: i love music of you dear...