bad for bad situation

haih... caught in the middle of tension world... i cant change nothing but still hoping that it will soon over!! when bad happen money comes to give you more burden to handle it... i numbed for what reason i do, keeping motivate myself to face it, weak, hopeless, hrmm so wait la until it gone by itself & plus praying to god also is a gud method to face it!!

I get all...numb
When she sings it's over
Such a strange numb
And it brings my knees to the earth

And God bless you all
For the song you saved us...

You're the same...numb
When you sing it's over
Such a strange numb
It could bring back peace to the earth

So God bless you all
For the song you saved us...oh...
For the hearts you break, everytime you moan...

I get all...numb
We're the same numb
And it brings our knees to the earth

So God bless you all
For the song you saved us..oh...
For the hearts you break, everytime you moan
And God bless you all on the earth...

~ i'm happy , but i dont know why i cry~

borink + sengal dipagi ari

So...

*Hadapi dengan senyuman
Semua yang terjadi
Biar terjadi
Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
Semua... Kan baik baik saja

*Oo... Pagi ta'kusangka... cinta ini begitu
Menyenangkan hatiku... duhai siang
Mengapa dadaku... bergetar slalu
Saat ada dirinya... Wahai malam
Hatiku terbang saat dia mau
Setuju untuk jadi kekasihku selamanya

bye bye jap!!

sayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonara
sayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonara

brasil still got Ronaldo & yes he prove it that hes still can score the goal for his country!! gud job Ronaldo and the rest of the team mate... GHANA, see you in the 2nd round game!! sayonara nippon, sumimasen sininchiro sensei ;)

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sayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonarasayonara

BAD DAY

expect the worst!!! no hope!!! running out of time!!! weak!!!

Newbies

i found my new cat, and shes so cute but the color is quite rare kots... hehe im so hepi and i name it "comot" or nick name "mot" hehe best gler name dier... manje xhenggat!! love cats... okla ada new cat leh pupuskan my memories with my greatest cat yg da dead... luv mot really much huhuhu ermmuahh!!

p/s: cats make me feel better & relax when i needed ;)

My life, its hard to say...

im still at my blog page trying to post whatever things that suddenly come out of my mind rite now.. sometimes a word that easy to say can be hard to say or express it in a rite way, *ape giler aku nih merepek pepg nih. so, i tried and i tried to make it perfect and simple to earn it and to love it. when i was there, i feel so happy and i wanna keep it for my whole damn life and always be whatever it takes, no matter how long and whatever price it takes! shame to be me... to be someone that too much thinking sumtimes it can be crazy and stupid without taking any kind of action to solve it.. what should i do? times & faith will decide it whether i am what i am or i am a loser! huh, not necessary to call that... the courage will somehow burn inside and someday i will... and i will let it go with a beauty of a moment... and i hope someday you will know or maybe you know it already... gosh! what the hell im saying this even myself couldnt say it. now, infront of my pc i feel so alone n so messed up/fuzzy mind! maybe i should take a gud nite sleep hehe! so, wherever you are take care and have a nice day!

p/s: sorry to make the confusion in my little mumbling... :

Surprise

To encounter suddenly or unexpectedly; take or catch unawares.
To attack or capture suddenly and without warning.
To cause to feel wonder, astonishment, or amazement, as at something unanticipated.

suprisesuprisesuprisesuprisesuprisesuprisesuprisesuprisesuprisesuprise

p/s: the word that full of meaning and full of impact to catch me or you in a certain moment... gud day to you! ;)

Hypertension is arround my head!

damn! today i got my task to complete the company profile video reel and the gud news is i got to submit it on this firday! damn..damn lots and lots of things got to be cover. well thank god today Tuah, Shuk and Sara a new people come to join our company! so it will be great things to be done... for one whole day we brainstroming, make a damn story board and also finalize the place to shoot and also the equipment that we suppose to used! this video doesnt look like 100% shooting element, we got to add it with flash and of course 3D, man im so scared can we finish it before the deadline? ermm so, 2morrow continue with the story board presentation and also last touch up before the production taks place, and i hope after this project we can have a rest, i hope so.. 1 whole day xmkn weh! xder sen tension ar... hate to be tension but sometimes its "gud" gud la konon! hahaha anyway arinih arap je online kat opis but xleh nk sentuh my pc cause kene group wat discussion fuh! argghhhh! i hope by this week i can go la to TGV ke GSC ke tgk tokyo drift lepas tension kije! lambatnyer nk abis week ni hahha!

insomia

haha.. cam biase aku xtau nk wat ape mnunggu hari pagi tuk pi kijer, sambel2 minum "Ali Cafe" (hahaha) i look at back all the pictures that i kept... nostalgia, memories, happy, cheer, sad and so many things that pictures can give a meaning.. friendship, love one and sometimes enemy! ermm.. layan gak tgk photo2 kami bersame2 n having fun that makes me feel really mixed emotional..
so, arini best la sket nk pi kije coz ada co-pilot2 yg xbertauliah hehehe spt bobo, sajen & cdik(paddle pop) tapi da potong rambut da( mcm victor valdes tuh)wahwahwah! so arini xle sesepi slalu pi kije sbab ade org tumpang & yg penting xder ar nk bwk keter sampei nk membunuh diri sendiri hahaha... arap2 arini my boss dont push my paleotak to the limit cause im really lack of focus rite now! i hope so.. so may the 2nd week of internship begin...

p/s: KONICHIWA...

SAMBA

finaly, the brazilian show their fangs toward australian! thanks to Adriano & Fred to score 2-0 againts australia! u know what, im watching with bobo and hatim at Bangi mamak.. taim 1st goal wah me and atim celebrate gler, sampei my watch yg beli kat MINES tuh tercabut tali dier...waaaa kene repair la gamaknyer! tp overall im so hepi with th game! ramai gler penyokong2 brazil kat sane, bob hampir2 kene tinggal kat bangi da sebab he support the australian! hahaha! sok kije cam biase, mmg insomia la ari nih huhuh!

1st gol from adriano


2nd from fred
(take it from ESPNsoccernet.com gallery)

p/s: brazil still need to be more SAMBA like th old time! ;) and take care for you hope to see you if both of us have time hehe ;)

"Rest Of My Life"

Am I the only one that feels alone
Though, all is home
Emotions flow
Am I the only one that hears the tears run down my face
Would anybody recognize at all

[Chorus]
Cause I know
I'm so slow
But I'm trying
And I'm still dying to know
Say you won't leave for the rest of my (life)

Life's the only thing that deals the pain
Like pouring rain
Breeding hate
And I don't wanna do no wrong
My God, it's been so long
Please comfort me
Before I go insane

p/s: best song ever in their 4th album "unwritten law"

weekend! YIIBBBA!

akhirnya, dpt gak rase cuti yg begitu tenang dan aman skali.. stalah penat memerah otak ku dlm opis yg penoh ngan kije yg menimbun2 datng cam air terjun! wah besh gak pi mandi air terjun.. arggh forget it! nk pi pon letih. so ari ni cam biase my life continue to be someone that love to be bored ermm naseb2! ape mau bwat.. but tonite ada gak la activity ngan kengkwn yg sentiase menyaport aku dari blakang!! haha thanks guys! so im still not watch yet "tokyo drift" and i dont know when will i watch it! damn, its a gud movie i will go to it someday! i hope! all of them da tgk da cesh! repeat ayat kat atas balik naseb2!! hahaha... anyway hope ur life is much better than me! fuihh.. still flashback the incident that almost make myself killed! thank god, im still here and still can make sum post! ciaw!!

p/s: cuti2 bekerja yg besh and sengal tuk diriku yang penuh dgn kebosanan!! ;)

"Far Away"

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know


So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

p/s: nice song by Nickelback, hope u like it!

A hope for life


Looking foward not behind, is the most situation that i had right now... im not sure whether im so stupid to be stupid! man! i hate my life!!! i shouldnt put my life in between dead and love but sometimes i should, cause i cant stand anymore cause the weakness that i got and the bad memories! i love my family and i love my friends, and of course i love myself to make something that i couldnt imagine! in the crisis of my 2 family that i got i really feel the pain that no one ever experience that kind of pain... here got one problem there got one problem and i sick to hear but sometimes i must cause im the oldest one and i must help them.! this plus with my other personalsick phycho emotion that i cannot puzzle it up, please God give me some strength to face this scenario... im scared, im weak, im full of rage, im in love, im a loser, im so dont know what should i do... am i having mental illness?! i hope not!!

LOVE & MISS (white & kula)



all those years you bring me the hapiness

the sad of your face makes me feel guilty

i cant forgive for what i've done to you

what should i do to make you better again



remember the joy you share with me

i love you most...

remember the sadness we being through

i miss you most...


now that your gone & im still alone

the great memories live fresh in my head

i dont want to make me feel like innocence

i just can wait & pray for your pretty soul...



thanks for your exist

and thought me about the life its all about

friendship that last

and i will regret for my whole damn life

i love you most...

i miss you most...



p/s: please take care of your cats while you can

the day he tried to live


my cat sick and he wanna die...

sad so sad...

now he's really calm and standby...

to make his 1st ever flying into the sky like a bird...

i hope him and the rest are happy at heaven (i think)...

and live happy over there...

sayonara & sorry :(

Indah

indah mmg indah
jika kau fahami aku
indah mmg indah
bila aku kau hargai
indah mmg indah
jika kau memberi
indah mmg indah
bila aku menerima


harapan kusut dlm pintalan
ketawa sedih kau menjadi igauan
apa yang harus dilema lakukan
demi untuk melafazkan kata cinta


indah mmg indah
kerana kau hati terbuka
indah mmg indah
mengapa aku terkunci mulutku
indah mmg indah
jiwamu inginku selami
indah mmg indah
akan ku hayati dirimu


aku tidak pasti akan dirimu
jika kau ada perasaan yg sama
aku inginkan kau dlm hidup ini
menemaniku mencari arah bersama

BRASIL de SAMBA WC'06

Gembira@Happy@Ureshii

walaupon aku arnih kurang sehat tapi aku rase hepi sbab aku rase mcm sesuatu itu telah memberikan aku satu rase yang tak mungkin semua org dpt!
pada pepg yg best ini aku nak semue dunia rase happy and no war hahaha hari happy sedunia d-anjurkan oleh aku ;p

love=happy

peace=happy

decent=happy

honest=happy

smile=happy

but sometimes killing also make some people happy...that sucks and that is cruel... that is psychopath people no life and zero hapiness

watashiwa ureshii... omaesan ureshii... minshuu ureshii... yochi ureshii hai ;p

Arinih cam biase kehidupan aku bukak kedai pastuh tutup kedai... tp arinih aku tutup awal sbab customer sume tdo kot tak pon sume blk kpg holiday... life is a rotation that keeps repeat it again n again until we know what it wanted us to do whether gud or bad! But aku still aku yg aku kenali dulu menginginkan ape yang aku xlayak untuk aku nak...KENAPA!?!?!? haih mixed emotion la plak, biler aku dok sowang2 aku asyik memikirkan ape yg xkene dgn diri aku, adakah aku dicipta begini "I think god can explain"... da la dtambah ngan masalah nk dptkan tmpt intern serabut tol kapla aku nih it makes my head wanna explode like atomic bomb at HIROSHIMA, i need some thing to help me and relieve my pain and my problem inside... bleh jadik mental gak aku nih huh! im just sitting, waiting and wishing that my life would be better and better and super duper better hahaha ;) have a nice day

ermm this is the story behind the silence person that suppose or not suppose to feel that every person have to feel it...actually

this piece of wording created because the feel that i had and it was stuck in my head to write and write...
this words also brings me to the sadness that i've got in the past and i should change to be...ermm i dont know who...so enjoy ;)

The story inside

Believe of what I say
That never to forget you in my mind
Trying to protect you
But I couldn’t cause of weakness of me
Will I suppose to meet you again?
Why should I feel this way to you?
Never want to lie to myself
But I try to pretend that’s okay

The story of us tells me about myself
You were always going to be on my heart
No matter how weak I am
I will hug you until my death
I hope you will understand the feel inside
Two of us or one of us will carry on

How should I tell you about the inside?
When you were being takeout of the world
Can I be with you forever? Or maybe in my dreams?
The love that I give to you is only just a hint
Why somebody else keep lying to me bout you
I don’t want to hide but somehow I should
Cause you never place me inside you

For all years I hunt for you
But now I think I’m hopeless to do so
Maybe you are not the one that I hunt
The feeling keep pushing me when I’m alone
To dream about you should be end with sadness through my heart
Just one I want to say if you are my destiny
Will you paint the feel of my heart?