this heart tempos

this heart tempos
only cause of you

this heart tempos
just to know its true

this heart tempos
like a love i cant control

this heart tempos
to let everybody know

this heart tempos
when i see your smile

this heart tempos
just before i dial

this heart tempos
i hope you feel the same

this heart tempos
cause my heart is where i write your name

p/s: dug dag dug dag dug dag *triplet-kan tempo itu

owner of the cute eyes

your eyes is a healer to me
its make yourself to look inside and outside of me
your eyes is picture for me
its makes myself always stare into it
your eyes is brown color
the color that relaxing my eyes when im look at you
your eyes so crystal water
that you are an innocence person
your eyes is sharp and focus
i like when you stare at something and it was like a fish eye (ikan gapi you know!!)

hope your eyes doesnt caught any serious thing
hope your eyes stay the way it is
hope your eyes get well soon
if i found doraemon
im sure i will ask him about a gadget that can make you eyes better
but for now you should go to check it at your doctor
hopefully and im praying for you to get well
because i love your cute eyes and of course the owner of the cute eyes...

p/s: kamu!! itu saket kalu datang lagi u kasi pijam sama itu mata yaa... tp i mmg xkasi laa u jd pirate ker cyclop ker... take care dear!

a.l.o.n.e.

alone I drift away
alone I walk a thousand miles
alone I fall asleep
alone I stare at the sky
alone I sit under a tree
alone I cry

alone I dream of you
alone I hope and pray
to God who is so merciful and powerful
to let me find my way

alone I drift away
alone I live today
and alone I'll die someday

After awhile...

its kinda long time im not updated my blog
not really a long time...
it just sometimes i wanna write but still the time jealous towards me
hurmm~ but now here i am writing without endless point and path

Meanwhile...

im kinda loss of something
'something' that really important for me and for you
it fill my emptiness and courage me everyday
but it loss again
glued by glued it helps a bit
and now the chemical of it doesnt seems to hold on it
so, i losing it again
its weird and it bring sad to me when im not wearing it
replacement is a must
and im should do something here
otherwise, im live my life in my own empty space
sorry to you cause i loss our symbol
the symbol that guide us everyday and make us feel of it, when one of us being faraway
no matter what happen
im still what you think i am
and i will never make you feel sad about it...

deep inside me
it is something special about 'it'
deep inside me
it is memory we create it
deep inside me
it is you and me
deep inside me
it is everything...

damn dirty them

why should i get stuck here?
walking and acting like i own 8 hands and of course 8 legs
up down left right
circle it square it
all angle i should cover
man! even goalkeeper only cover his own goal post
why should i?
find found list
journalist
drag type creative-stoner
designer
haha understand what i mean?
try if you can...
damn dirty them

p/s: kamu~thanx for the nidji showcase + tag + VIP ya ;) im so happy to be with you on that day and i like gua's staff oledi...kehkehkeh

Advice from your sad friend

it almost 6.00pm
and this is it
the moment that my word been clarify
and he should throw the word to testify
whatever happen i knew you already
please change for a sake of your life
not for anyone... all this is for you
think about your parent, your brother and sister
they dont want you to be like this
inside me, im crying...
inside me, im deeply sad...

so make up your right decision!!
choose to change my friend!!

p/s: btw..kamu! i miss you...

Question to the 'other' me?

what else can i write?
am i an emo person?
why i always think the unthinkable matters?
am i hungry?
am i talking with myself again?

no! im talking to the 'other' me...
have no idea to mumble
so lets go out and take some refreshment...

What makes a friend

a friend
what makes a friend?
a friend
is someone that everyone needs
a friend
is that special one
a friend
is someone you tell EVERYTHING
a friend
is someone you never lie to
a friend
can be a boy or a girl
a friend
is someone that is always their
a friend
will always listen to you
a friend
always has input to give
a friend
will never leave you in the dust
a friend
will help you through the thick and the thin
a friend
will always stand by your side
a friend
will never let you down
a friend
is someone everyone needs
what would you do if you didnt have a friend?

p/s: i wish it was a nightmare!!!

My friend

dear my friend
hope you read my words
the words that really matters for us
that appreciate it as a friendship
the way you act
the way you talk
the way you behave
nothing much different as the 'old' you that i knew
i love the moment we been hangout together
drink at 'mamak'
'dota' at cyber cafe
everything is there at the 'old' time
everything is complete for us to share the happy things
but.. now! everything is most hopeless for us to re-build it again as a good buddies
where is your honesty of trusting your friends
where is your dignity that you said you put it very high
even almost nobody cant reach it...
where is the true friendship when you said you can be our ears and eyes to share the problems.. even you! yourself hiding in your true problem without let us hear it until now..
im shocked
im scared
im frustrated
im totally mad at you
i wish this is a dream that we called it nightmare
but it is true, to understand, to interpret, to act..
so please my friend
why should you feel like this
i know in other places its not wrong
but for me, in my honest word 'it sick'
i dont want to hate you
because you, my friend
we care
we love
we chat
we act
we share
all because you are our good friend!!
a good friend never hypocrite
a good friend always show the honesty in being a friend
a good friend doesnt hiding the problem that suppose to be share
so please..please..please and i repeat it please
if you care about our friendship dont do it
and dont you ever try to bond with it
find a good friend better that us to change yourself
in a better and a right path..
all this because you are our good friend!!!

p/s: hope you read it my friend..this is the word from me even though it is more inside, but to clear it up we must talk.. honest doesnt change... :(

There's A Kiss

there's a kiss to say I love you,
there's a kiss to say I care,
there's a kiss to prove our friendship,
there's a kiss for us to share,
there's a kiss to say it's true,
but the kiss I love the most,
is the kiss I get from you...

Small soldier invade my body

thank god! my internet connection recovered
after for quite long been waiting, now i post one maybe two or three
im not feeling well today
damn i wish i brought my 'bantai buchuk' along
flu, are attacking me from each part of my body
weak and weak im going to be
probably 'they' want to group their soldier of fever to help 'them' to weak my body
a dozen of tissue paper i used
there fill out my dustbin, full of tissue that i used to take off the small soldier of flu
haha im might be to imaginative to say something that perhaps someone would understand me
but others, my words are crap... but for sure i dont give a shit
i just write what i want

after working maybe i go to see my old-old band mate called 'regicide'
at last we been united again to do something that we care, we love and we proud of...

REGICIDE members are:

1.kojack (thats me)-the silence sound guitar + vocalist 'mendayu dan terjerit2 tanpa arah tuju' (1st buleh 2nd pun buleh)

2.kim-the sticky drum + vocalist 'yang nak jadi ala2 Brandon Boyd + Glay + Once jadi laa mcm S.M Salim tak pun Salleh Yaacob)

3.ayie-bass man bombom

4.kobet-frying flaming guitar

but where is the vocalist? so far me and kim are the vocalist... haha i can sing to but if the riff is to heavy for me to handle we should 'upah' someone to 'nyayi' lah

and there it goes! hope and im hoping with this come back we can manage something to be done.

p/s: sambil menaip sambil menghembus kan atau meng'seeh'kan hingguih yang buat penat nak piki... my body is getting panas and panas laa :( kamu kim salam your mum skali ye...

"with great power come with great responsibility"

yesterday my superhero been drugged by her medicine that she took
she so tired, so sleepy and so not in a good mood to save a day
she should rest after she took that medicine that originality influenced by drug
cough,cold and fever,this combining enemy doesnt threat her to give up to save the day...
but actually the drug made her feel floating in the sky and sometime she said "dear im losing my balance to walk"
haha..that is the impact of evil drug that really make sick people to be ok again!
so let me warn to the virus, just go away evil sickness!! you dont know yet who is her, and what capability that she got to kill you all and make you suffer...
i hope my superhero ok today
whether i know she might probably busy today saving all the problem there

but i missed my superhero sms today...
but its ok...

RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE JAPAN TOUR 2008

my favorite band will be in asia which is Japan and im sure a lot of you guys love ratm, they were icon to me and they are my inspiration for me to fight for our rights + the music itself!... after all long gone and with all personal matters now ratm come to provoke + to give a preach + to rebel.. and thats what we should do and to join them to be a freedom fighter!

Thursday 7 February
OSAKA CASTLE HALL
Doors open:6pm/Show start:7pm
Ticket: •9,000(Arena:Standing/2F:Seat)
INFO:06-6535-5569(SMASH WEST)

Saturday 9 & Sunday 10 February
TOKYO MAKUHARI MESSE
Doors open:5pm/Show start:6:30pm
Ticket: •9,000(All Standing)
INFO:03-3444-6751(SMASH)







p/s: i wanna go to japan to watch this great ever consert of my entire life... but
:( no money 9000 yen!!! *watashiha have chotto money* waaaa!!... concert start in this coming february 2008... and i sad i cant go there to watch my idol... :( hope you guys that reading my blog join ya! and tell me about that damn great concert! Hasta La Victoria Siempre!!!

*I miss you*

Sooner or Later

some of them just talk
and hope its easy to execute
for them it is a business
but is it worth it for me?

I just pretend to be understand
understand the words they are talking about
I cant do it well the way they left it
it just the way it is, nod your head
and nod my head?

two for one
it just like something budget isn't it?
hope they will find others to join
or I will be rebel for as long I live here
will I stay long here? haha...

problem solving was not in the list
the list that they should focusing more
I have no intention to saying bad about it
but can they think about themselves properly?

stress
anger
disoriented
tired
fed-up

all those words when im combine it
they will know it
just I am way too much patience inside
to become REBEL...rebel with a cause!

Summary of 2 days

Weekend baru ni aku terpakse come to work saturday & sunday actually for fcr event (friendly comparative religion). But on saturday aku hanya masuk untuk 1st session jer maknernyer morning session so, afternoon session aku terpakse buat keje lain. Kerja itu adalah men-design atau meng-alter segala content & a bit of design layout for "The Criteria" newspaper, yang mana staff department tu da diberhantikan atas dasar2 yang malaih aku nk cite kat sini! So, they want me urgently to join that department sebab depa tau aku memang nk masuk into that field of job. So, i take it! Well! so much to be corrected in terms of words and so much to re-arrange the layout and also the graphics in there. Its cool enough for me to be a part of "The Criteria" team... hahaha but its not a team really actually only me kot yang wat design2, no new staff yet nak masuk... huuu~ so on saturday afternoon, my job is to working on that thing called newspaper! YEAY! balik lambat seh!!! huh... on saturday gak berlangsung kat Old Trafford, MANCHESTER UNITED benamkan NEWCASTLE UNITED 6-0 yeay!!(kamu sangat ong la kalu tgk skali huuu~) watashiha ureshii!!

So, talk about sunday... aku datang lambat sebab nak drop my dear kat LCCT (dia ada some sort of staff discussion + vacation kat Langkawi *best tuh) so, dalam perjalanan die ke my house agak funny gak biler die citer, die tringat kat my story yang mana time tuh aku tgh dok memberi 'pelan induk' bagaimana jalan and highwat nak ke rumah aku... so, biase laa aku kalu da bersembang nak kene ade gaya tangan2 tuh nak tunjuk ngan lebeh detail selain drpd melukis plan kat 'our book' hehe.. Then somehow, my hand just like making something that make her laugh haha actually aku pon xperasan aku buat camtuh nyer gaya kalu ade 8 tangan senang nk tunjuk.. ni ade due tangan terpakse laa kene goyang2 kan sket xkan nk tunjuk ngan mulut kot... tapi memang lawak!!! then one more issue is aku nak cakap kat die camni, " you ikut highway nak pi seremban, klia, jepon tu tau!! highway plus..ok..)then die tergelak lagi akibat bf die yang sengal nk pi jepon cakap plak camtuh, mcm laa highway kat Malaysia ni bleh pi setarus ke jepon hahaha.. actually aku nk ckp highway ke Johor not Jepun hahaha sengalnyer aku nih!! so die manage laa sampei ke my house! then.. (nyayi sket part nih) seiji ~ kun lari gagah berani.. haha dengan lajunyer aku drive die pi LCCT.. then da smp, da amik tiket, da beli film, pi laa McD nk mkn sat xb'fast lagi.. sian die sempat mkn segigit Fillet o Fish jer and beberape teguk milo ice jer, then die pun gerak ke dalam.. waaaa sedih wooo part tuh waaaa!! btw i hope you enjoy your trip there yaa!! miss you!!

p/s: kamu if ada sen sket cari laa souvenir for me yaa ;) take care!!

2nd for us and lets hold it forever :)

Damn-nation of work

what i done is to follow the instruction
sometimes the instruction might probably wrong
should i follow? should i throw the damn instruction into a garbage?
hell yeah! i throw the instruction more deeper than it was suppose to be.
then i speak up the way i am, to see how much they will understand about me
finally i won! but not an official victory!
I got to wait for a couple of days to be crown as a winner...
to be work as operator, a mover, an interior cleaner/designer, head event organizer, graphic/web/sound/visual design...blablablabla...
too much from me to be divided myself into a pieces.
maybe i would like to living hell in newspaper section
that topic i was talk to the 'boss' that i want to move myself into other world
the 'boss' look so understand my situation and i hope what she said will be reality,
or else i will...you know what i should do right!
promise is promise...
so i just wait to see it comes to me!!

What a Fright Day

-Is it something happen to me?
-Rasa xsedap hati jer...
-Loss of appetite just drink, drink and wee wee...
-What's going on!?

(maybe i'm over thinking) :|

ACTIVITY AFTER BORINGNESS

task 1

another boring day probably is a gift to me, just now i had an informal discussion with my big boss. she want me to block all my agenda on this february and march every 2nd week on each month which feb & mar to attend this meeting organize by ACCIN (allied coordinating committee of Islamic N.G.O.s, so i represent as IIS. man! this is huge for me to take the responsible to attend and to spread an idea on what topic that they discuss, so im part of them! and better quiet if nothing to say isnt it?

task 2

i got to call this staff named kak adawiyah to ask her about this whole year '08 activity regarding FCR and also event that organize by IIS. thats cool, calling people to know that things but its hell when that person doesnt have a soft copy about the event and its kinda hard for me laa.. i got to tulis while im on the phone man that's crap... hopefully she already type it on Word laa if not my fingers will not able to write blog again because of it... + big boss said she want me to redesign the actual layout for this particular page, she said again "as long as simple no much flashy2 thing because kite bagi information kat org jer" then i nodding my head, a sign of understand what she saying..hah!

task 3

its about design to but in a process of brainstorming the main page of IIS fuhh!! byk2 lagi la pening my head to encounter this situation. hope i will pass this test laa.. if not i will flying without a wings! masak + rentung beb.. da la sorg2 je handle, but i try and i try not to say no to do it. GAMBATTE KUDASAI SEIJI~KUN HAIIIT YATTA!!!

CRAZY NOW

i think i'm crazy now!!!
crazy because the cold is too much
i think i'm crazy now!!!
crazy because outside is heavily rain and storm
i think i'm crazy now!!!
crazy because here only myself is a life form + 'that thing'
i think i'm crazy now!!!
crazy because repeating the same old songs again & again
i think i'm crazy now!!!
crazy because i keep writing & posting
i think i'm crazy now!!!
crazy because i can't think the simple idea for something
i think i'm crazy now!!!
crazy because someone there is sick because cappucino
i think i'm crazy now!!!
crazy because someone there is missing me
i think i'm crazy now!!!
crazy because of her & i love her

i think i'm crazy now!!!

p/s: one crazy day in my boring office huuuhhh!!

Watch, Learn, Understand and Express

Just to recall my memory inside here,
Been together with you is so much fun,
To watch, to learn, to understand and to express,
It's kind a sad when actually you sick because that 'power cappuccino',
Sumimasen.. but the effect of that, you just like a 'hyper girl' that loves to run here and there with trolley..its cute you know!,

Just to recall my memory inside here,
Been together with you is so much fun,
To watch, to learn, to understand and to express,
Writing with someone in same book is new for me..and sometimes i just stuck a word to be writing down,
But somehow how i know that is the way we share every minutes and every seconds together like peanut butter sandwich bread,
We write we draw we questioning each other there..and i like it,

Just to recall my memory inside here,
Been together with you is so much fun,
To watch, to learn, to understand and to express,
When you dressed like that i just fall in love once again with you,
You look so cute and you look so nice should i total it to be a beautiful..yeah you are beautiful inside and outside,
Its stop my heart for sure,

Just to recall my memory inside here,
Been together with you is so much fun,
To watch, to learn, to understand and to express,
We walking side by side and somehow we walking separately for one purpose,
The purpose is for surprising each other,
Walking separately for the surprise,
And somehow after a while we've been separate,
We meet that 'i-setan' with shocking faces and empty hand of surprise,
But we already surprise to meet on that time whether actually we still searching,
Haha..i love that moment,

Just to recall my memory inside here,
Been together with you is so much fun,
To watch, to learn, to understand and to express,
Hope you will be happy for what i give and what i've done,
And i cant hardly wait to hand over it to you,
To you i wish a happy birthday and may happiness always be with you,
And for us i wish we will be like peanut butter and sandwich bread and always enjoy and appreciate our relationship + arigatougozaimasu...

p/s: xnak ajak kamu gi minum coffee dah.. kite layan cendoi ngan pasemboq pon ok... hope u will get better dear *demmit punyer serbuk kopi wat kamu rase sick nnt kite bakaq sume ladang kopi kat cameron highland :p

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A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Enjoy the trip!
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"The Scorpio person is passionate, powerful, penetrating, intense, determined, compelling, purposeful, keenly perceptive, brave, deep, complex, analytical, inquisitive, sensual, mysterious, resourceful, ambitious, magnetic, hypnotic, creative, intriguing, profound, loyal, supportive, protective, generous, humble, quiet, and encompassing. They are also self-critical, investigative, passionately caring, tenacious, dynamic, probing, emotional, concerned, compassionate, and shock-proof. They have intense concentration and they understand failings.

On a bad day a Scorpio tends to be self-destructive, ruthless, overbearing, suspicious, jealous, possessive, dangerous, quick-tempered, obstinate, moody, sadistic, insulting, secretive, intolerant, cunning, vindictive and terribly insecure."

Attributes

Likes
Mystery, secrets, privacy, loyalty, passion, strength, being acknowledged, integrity, willpower, strategy.

Dislikes
deceit, apathy, being questioned, excessive compliments, easily tempered, insincerity, embarrassment, passivity.

Suitable occupations
detective (aiyark kene jd detective conan laa), pathologist, surgeon (haha bedah-bedah), scientist, researcher, undertaker (ni baru black metal sket), insurer, market analyst, butcher (wow), member of the armed service, politician (xmo sama skali get involve), actor (you nk i jd ni kn), artist (sama camni pon), or pharmacist."

-taken from wikipedia

p/s: ade sket2 laa kene gak huhu.. but i am what i am...

Melody + Love

this past week probably the planning moment
but i don't know whether it will going well
hope it does, and sure this is a first time

this coming week is the reveal moment
for you to appreciate the day that you are suppose to
and surely i don't know whether it's going to be a of surprise or not

but deep inside here is really sincere of what i'm trying to do
whether it will happen or not...

hope you will like it the 'thing' i will give to you!
and play it with love...
to come out a melody called melove...

p/s: one more to come but surely you don't know it, hope i can achieve that 'thing' to you

I will never love you less

Being with you has changed
my life in many different ways
without you I don't think my
days could possibly be the same

I can't find words to say
how you truly make me feel
but one thing that I'm sure of
is that this feeling for you is real

you cheer me up when I'm sad
you make me laugh when I get mad
you're the one I trust the most
I love the fact that we're so close

I have given you the key to my heart
I miss you everytime that we're apart
I know I may not be the best
but I will never love you less

1st in the dawn of 2008

i still remember on that moment
focusing on what i suppose to do
im here to protect you
im hear to escort you
im hear to comfort you

but suddenly...

when the pedal been stepped to stop and so on
the word came seriously through out my mouth
to say, the famous word for this new year
"Normal"
it goes like this, "Kamu~ I da normal!"
then like a speeding bullet
she continue the scene with laughing out loud
at 1st, i kinda bit confused,
and somehow i realize that my word "Normal" didnt fit to be used on that action

so...

i think about it
the proper word for free gear in auto transmission is "Neutral"
meanwhile, she's still laughing and of course myself joining her to laugh to myself
haha..what a day!

before that...

our mind and our thought has been tickle
it just a matter to blow out loud haha
the incident that makes us wanted to continue the laughing is...
haha, this one guy came across a zebra crossing then
after step his feet step on the side walk
he make something funny to me to look it at
he's walking facing back to us together with his action
that make us laugh...

know what...

he's pull his under wear
maybe because "tersangkut dicelah-celah kot"
that's why la people, dont use "spender cap buaya"
nak pakai gak, cover-cover la nk tarik-tarik tuh...
as i said to her that is a people called "rem-ki"
rempit yg xder motor, hanya meng-huha kan diri dgn berjalan kaki, so i called them "rem-ki"
its cool to witness that situation that no one would never want to look
hahaha...

because of the "rem-ki", the "normal" word comes out confidently... what to do..
jom gelak-gelak! *ckp ala-ala Maria Tun Sabri ok